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Post by MustangGtGirl on Aug 15, 2012 20:53:45 GMT -5
:)Thankyou
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Post by madamep on Aug 15, 2012 20:58:37 GMT -5
Sending a huge hug x
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Post by semicolon on Aug 15, 2012 21:31:39 GMT -5
Kimmie- I think you are totally right in trying to give this guy the benefit of the doubt, even if it's hard to be patient. You definitely did your homework to find him and he seems like he wants to help. This is a tough road to be on, just take it one day at a time.
And I'm a huge car crier! Thank the gods for waterproof mascara, or I'd be a raccoon too often.
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Post by MustangGtGirl on Aug 16, 2012 9:12:24 GMT -5
Karen, You are so right it is just so hard to do. I keep telling myself it will be handled then I take 1 step forward and 2 behind. I have to give myself time to calm down and think and then see it in a different way. The first reaction is always why, when, will it, what is it, why did he do this to me. Then like you said I have to remind my self to breathe it is a bump in the road and the same way I have fought like a bi___ to come this far if I let it control me for sure I will not get any where fast.
Semi, I am with you, waterproof mascara all the way. It's like the car is the only place away from everyone that you can just let it out.
Thank you for your support everyone I really need it and can not tell you how much I appreciate it.
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Post by JC on Aug 19, 2012 7:35:52 GMT -5
Can you imagine the mess you'd be in if you hadn't stood up for yourself and done your homework? If anything, you should be damn proud of yourself for being so strong! You are awesome! I totally understand how hard it is to be patient. A case as complex as yours takes time to resolve. That's a really difficult concept to swallow since you feel awful every single day but keep in mind that the most important thing you body needs right now is time. The most you, and your doctor, can do is give your body the best possible environment to heal and your body will take care of the rest. You have been so incredibly strong through this whole mess and I think you are finally on the road to a recovery.
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Post by MustangGtGirl on Aug 20, 2012 16:07:21 GMT -5
Thank you Jenaya.
I go to the surgeon tomorrow. I have no clue what to expect and I am trying not to think to much about the visit but how to get the most out of it. I'm trying to keep my nerves down and remember it is not the same Dr that did the surgery. My trust level is so low now because all this. How do I learn to trust this Dr. and not be afraid of him?
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Post by semicolon on Aug 20, 2012 19:42:58 GMT -5
Is anyone going with you to the appt? It could be helpful for your nerves. (I say that, but half the time I kick my husband out anyway). . Good luck!
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Post by MustangGtGirl on Aug 20, 2012 22:50:32 GMT -5
Thank You!!
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Post by MustangGtGirl on Aug 22, 2012 16:20:32 GMT -5
Well I had a nervous breakdown on the way to see the surgeon. I pulled into a parking lot and broke down calling them and telling them I wasn't going to make it. The receptionist stayed on the phone with me for a few minutes until I calmed down and told me to come tomorrow which was today. I went home and cried my eyes out. My nerves have had about all they can take. I actually was so depressed before I tried to go yesterday that I forgot I lit two candles and when I took my PJ's off threw them on my dresser and they landed on top of the candles which I did not know until my fire alarms went off and I saw flames on my dresser in my bedroom. Thank god my husband was able to get it out by stomping it with his hands. After I got home I stayed in bed and didn't move. I went to the surgeon today and he said I have to find a general surgeon that he handles the open wound but I need a general surgeon to handle the lump because it's getting bigger. So now I have to find another surgeon. I called my Aunt who works at a hospital and she referred two. I am waiting on a call back. I don't know how to keep it together anymore. Girls I have given all I have to fight to help this and I don't think I have anything left. I don't know what to do
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Post by 1234 on Aug 23, 2012 12:50:08 GMT -5
Hi, Kimmie. I'm so sorry for this. Have you heard from the general surgeon? How are you doing today?
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Post by MustangGtGirl on Aug 23, 2012 17:37:10 GMT -5
I'm lost. He wont take me because he did not do the surgery. I need HELP and can not get anyone to help me. My Aunt is going to speak with the head of surgery tomorrow and try and find me someone that will help me, someone that is good. I am shutting down emotionally and don't know how to stop that from happening. I fought for this long I can't give up but my emotions have taken over. The pain is so bad and getting worse I have no clue is it from the infection or is the endo back. I am an emotional wreck right now. What do I do?
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Post by Karen on Aug 23, 2012 18:42:09 GMT -5
Take a deep breath, Kimmie, and hope that your aunt knows someone that'll address it. I can't imagine what you're going through, but know that we're here, k?
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Post by semicolon on Aug 23, 2012 19:32:45 GMT -5
Can you look at getting a health advocate or nurse/social worker who could help you through this a little? Maybe someone at the hospital, your aunt seems very helpful. Did you actually speak to the surgeon? I think to anyone you need to say point blank that the prior surgeon did not do right to you as a patient and you need someone new (that should be obvious, unfortunately).
Don't give up, you can do this. Can you talk to a counselor? You are going through so much, having a professional on your team would be good.
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Post by MustangGtGirl on Aug 24, 2012 16:34:27 GMT -5
My Aunt was able to find me a surgeon. She is based out of Manhatten and after seeing the CT scan and talking to her she wants to see me asap. She is on call at a hospital about 40 min from me on Wednesday and wants me to go there so she can see me and help me. They called me late last night just to check up on me. I can beleive it finally someone is willing to help me. I am praying that Wednesday is the end to all this and I can start moving forward. Thank you all for your support.
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Post by Karen on Aug 24, 2012 17:53:02 GMT -5
Progress! That's awesome that you have your aunt in your corner, finding you docs behind the scenes. Keep us posted and hang in there!
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