who would want a big ol' mess?

[cware000]

Hey Atherhel - I am 35 and single - no kids - Stage 4 endo with intersitial cystitis - which absolutely drives me crazy. I had my first lap in August 2009 and my doctor couldn't do anything for me because he was not experienced enough - so he closed me back up and now I am getting bounced around from doctor to doctor because no one knows what to do with me. I have been suffering for the last 5 years - that I can remember anyway. I am not dating - I don't have the energy and I just feel very alone - all my friends go out every weekend and I am at home strung out on pain killer and just trying to get through the days. I am not sure how to snap out of the rut and I just haveing a really hard time right now. Maybe because it was the holidays and that. Thank go I have all you girls on here!!

[hellsbells]

Ahh Cindy, what a familiar story, eh? I'm addicted to this forum now, I spend hours just popping on and off, even though you're all so far away it makes me feel less alone.

All you can really do to snap out of the rut is try and make small, positive changes. Make a superhuman effort to go out with your friends, or maybe ask them to come to you? I know it's hard but you need to try and have a little fun to remind you about the good things in life. That's what I do. We have to not let it all be bad.

[rhncasi419]

Although this posting is older and I'm new to this board and completely suffering, I am going through the EXACT same thing as everybody. I too am having a difficult time with the whole who would want me like this with fears that my boyfriend is getting sick of the endless weekend nights in or even worse, when I put on a good front to try and go out and then midway into our night have to go home in the middle of the fun because my abdomen is so bloated and in twisting turning pain. Yeah, I'm afraid too. As for marriage, yes, it is for better or worse, but what about those of us who are so in love and hope that our boyfriends will want to marry us soon ... but like this? Hey, at least we are showing them EVERYTHING that we are about right? No surprises here for him I often think. There are some couples like my poor brother ... lol ... everything was great with his fiancee and hasn't had sex with her now for 3 months after the wedding because of some gyn issue she is going through (not related to endo). He didn't know what he was getting into, apparently, this happened after their wedding! So, this is life, huh? I sometimes think they love us for our weaknesses too. Afterall, men like to try and fix things. Although, my bf confessed to me this morning that he is frustrated because he can't fix this one! So, instead, he placed 2 percocets in my hand with a glass of water and told me to stay in bed and brought me the laptop for today (I had such a bad night last night). I am crying for all of us.

[hellsbells]

Your guy sounds really cool, he's a keeper! And yes, if they are good guys, they love everything about us!