Post by nibletz on Jun 3, 2013 12:46:27 GMT -5
hi all,
I have my lap scheduled for 3rd July, however I went to see my GP Friday gone I only went to get another sick note to send off for Employment & support allowance, anyways I was experiencing horrendous pain since that morning and got doctors office crying and screaming in pain poor hubby practically carried me in the docs office, he actually took it seriously enough and said he will fax my gynae that day to say it is urgent to bring my lap forward due to severity of pains...anyways I am now on cancellation list however will try speak with my gynae tomorrow as she was not in office today so will try tomorrow and make sure she has received the fax and when she can do it....
next weekend is my cuzs wedding and a week later is second part then we supposed to babysit my hubby's grand kids....and to be honest i hope she does it next week so i can miss all of it as not in to wedding and I would save a heap of money as its £160-170 approx for hotel for next weekend as well as fuel to there then fuel to second part as we have family there can stay at his moms....and with babysitting his grand kids to be perfectly honest whenever I try to say anything when he says something to his kids or anytime he undermines me in front of them and over rides anything i say so i just don't have the energy even though his daughter in law is so lovely....i just don't have the energy as if i have my op then i can just stay at my moms to recover n he can babysit or we just stay home and my friend gonna help me out....
anyway im just very nervous its lap 2 but surgery number 12 ish (lost count) i still freak out completely when i come round from anesthesia i vomit nausea dizziness and scream n cry for my mom which i know sounds mad but i don't know what it is.....i keep thinking what if i don't wake up or what if anesthesia don't work and i can feel it all but paralyzed or what if they find something else or it worsens after lap....i keep putting on a brave face for my family as when i spoke to hubby about my worries and things he was like why you so worried u had nuff surgery your just being stupid....i wish i could confide in my mom she just knows me and knows how to calm me before surgery she only missed one that's since i met my hubby and lived far from home which we still do but just a nice convo with her would be enough except i cant even have that as he like you should talk to me but when i do it turns pear shaped and its all in my head...
sorry for going on n on just could really use some helpful tips on calming myself before surgery and relaxation techniques whether its foods or drinks or anything im open to....could really even just use kind words and support...
thank you for listening x
I have my lap scheduled for 3rd July, however I went to see my GP Friday gone I only went to get another sick note to send off for Employment & support allowance, anyways I was experiencing horrendous pain since that morning and got doctors office crying and screaming in pain poor hubby practically carried me in the docs office, he actually took it seriously enough and said he will fax my gynae that day to say it is urgent to bring my lap forward due to severity of pains...anyways I am now on cancellation list however will try speak with my gynae tomorrow as she was not in office today so will try tomorrow and make sure she has received the fax and when she can do it....
next weekend is my cuzs wedding and a week later is second part then we supposed to babysit my hubby's grand kids....and to be honest i hope she does it next week so i can miss all of it as not in to wedding and I would save a heap of money as its £160-170 approx for hotel for next weekend as well as fuel to there then fuel to second part as we have family there can stay at his moms....and with babysitting his grand kids to be perfectly honest whenever I try to say anything when he says something to his kids or anytime he undermines me in front of them and over rides anything i say so i just don't have the energy even though his daughter in law is so lovely....i just don't have the energy as if i have my op then i can just stay at my moms to recover n he can babysit or we just stay home and my friend gonna help me out....
anyway im just very nervous its lap 2 but surgery number 12 ish (lost count) i still freak out completely when i come round from anesthesia i vomit nausea dizziness and scream n cry for my mom which i know sounds mad but i don't know what it is.....i keep thinking what if i don't wake up or what if anesthesia don't work and i can feel it all but paralyzed or what if they find something else or it worsens after lap....i keep putting on a brave face for my family as when i spoke to hubby about my worries and things he was like why you so worried u had nuff surgery your just being stupid....i wish i could confide in my mom she just knows me and knows how to calm me before surgery she only missed one that's since i met my hubby and lived far from home which we still do but just a nice convo with her would be enough except i cant even have that as he like you should talk to me but when i do it turns pear shaped and its all in my head...
sorry for going on n on just could really use some helpful tips on calming myself before surgery and relaxation techniques whether its foods or drinks or anything im open to....could really even just use kind words and support...
thank you for listening x