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Post by semicolon on Jan 19, 2012 20:28:11 GMT -5
Thank goodness!! I don't think it should matter if you're still on the pill, and if anyone cares you can say "oh, maybe you should have mentioned that 45 years ago when i started this damn process!!". Good luck, Gem!
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Post by painttheseconds on Jan 20, 2012 0:00:42 GMT -5
YAY Gem!!!! I'm am so stinking happy for you. It's about freaking time. Good luck with everything and keep us posted.
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Post by 1234 on Jan 21, 2012 10:51:08 GMT -5
Gem, I am so so happy for you. I hope this surgery is good. You deserve some break from this disease. You're really tough about it, but you've had such a rough journey this past year. Great news!
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Post by JC on Jan 21, 2012 12:31:31 GMT -5
OH YAY!!! That's great news! I hope you get some answers from this!
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Post by gemstone on Jan 21, 2012 13:10:56 GMT -5
Thank you everyone!! I am soooo happy and excited and nervous all at once!! I've taken three weeks off work - I've saved up to do this as I won't get paid, but I want to give myself enough time to recover as I am able to
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Post by Karen on Jan 21, 2012 14:44:45 GMT -5
So, I have to ask... Is this an exploratory lap, or will they actually be addressing what they find?
I hope you get some answers and some relief! And I hope work will be as understanding as they can be... I know you've had to put up a lot with them through this all. Wouldn't it be nice to flaunt a big 'ol f you to them when you figure out what's been the cause of your pain?
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Post by gemstone on Jan 21, 2012 16:53:37 GMT -5
Well, I have been diagnosed by internal exam with endo and they know what they're looking for. The lap is to remove what they find by excision I believe. I have a 'large mass' of endometriosis that can be seen by internal exam that I think is positioned just under my cervix (from what I can gather), so I guess they'll start with that?
Work are just purposefully ignorant, asking questions like 'so I expect this surgery will be the end of all your problems then?'. When I try and explain anything to them they talk over me and don't want to listen. I will be using my time off to apply for jobs!!
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Post by gemstone on Jan 30, 2012 12:01:21 GMT -5
Starting to freak out girls!! I saw my mum today and all she goes on about is how once I've had the surgery I'll be able to have a baby. I'm so wound up I almost lost it with her I did keep my cool though luckily and I think I've managed to persuade her not to come with me on Wednesday as the boyf is coming. Also, keep being grumpy with said boyf over nothing. I'm just snappy; I assume it's just because I'm wound up but he has started snapping back which he never does, which means I am being a bitch... Just want it over and done with now. My sex life has taken a battering the last few months, I now can't even become aroused without pain, a lot of the time it's enough to put me off altogether which I know is just adding to the stresses for both of us. Anyway, this is more of a self-pitying rant I've realised!
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Post by jtean on Jan 30, 2012 16:23:31 GMT -5
Oh man, it's awesome that you are finally going in for the surgery!! Crazy that you have stuff that they can feel when just doing an exam, it will be so great for you to get that stuff out of there!!
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Post by painttheseconds on Jan 30, 2012 17:07:59 GMT -5
You are almost there Gem. I'm sorry not everyone is being very supportive or understanding. Feel free to rant all you want. I can't wait till all of this is over for you and you can start feeling better. We can be recovering surgery buddies.
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Post by 1234 on Jan 31, 2012 7:00:55 GMT -5
Gem, I've been thinking of you throughout the last several days. I'm sorry about teh a**holes at work and your mom's comments--just ridiculous and inappropriate. But you've been waiting for this surgery for so long and have been enduring so much pain--I think being wound up and snapping at people is about as reasonable as you can be. ANd it really sucks you can't blow off steam and make up to the boyf by having sex. You're almost there!
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Post by JC on Jan 31, 2012 9:34:11 GMT -5
UGH! The baby conversation! I hate that!! And about your boyfriend, I find that when I'm being a rager bitch to my husband I just stop and tell him, "Hey I'm really sorry I have been snapping at you lately. I haven't been myself and I'm really stressed out. I don't mean to take it out on you and I'll try to be aware of it next time." Then when you rage on him again he'll just have to understand! ;D HA!
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Post by semicolon on Jan 31, 2012 9:51:02 GMT -5
Is tomorrow the big day? These few days of crap won't matter after the fact!!
I was a total jerk to my husband right before my surgeries, but fortunately when the day hits it's all business and you're in it together. By the third lap we were laughing it up hard core in pre-op and I made a bet with my surgeons (I won, awesome!). Don't let the past year of crap sully your opinions of the nurses and docs, I'm sure they will be great!
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Post by gemstone on Jan 31, 2012 11:54:48 GMT -5
Tomorrow is the big day!! Thanks girls I saw my mum again today (and I am calmer today!) and I know that unfortunately she just doesn't understand and the comments about having a baby and that I'll be 'all better' after surgery will just continue. She's wonderful but I know she can't understand so I have to just let it go! The boyf has been having a hard time at work so I think me snapping and him back was just a build of of both our sh*t at the moment. It's all good, he has a few days off to look after me so we'll get to spend some time together literally just chilling out And don't worry, I'm not letting what's happened the last year or so tarnish anything tomorrow, I'm scared but excited now. This time tomorrow I'll be being operated on!!! I'll update you all when I can - thank you all for the messages
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Post by painttheseconds on Jan 31, 2012 12:44:55 GMT -5
I'm glad you are feeling calmer today.
Hope everything goes well tomorrow. Keep us updated on how you are doing.
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