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Post by cherry on May 11, 2011 3:51:19 GMT -5
Thanks ladies I really appreciate the thoughts and support. I'm ok with it now, realised there in the.waiting room who are literally disabled, have cancer, unable to cope with their issues and pain, coming in on ambulances and emergency admissions, so really must count my lucky stars. I'll bombard my gp in the meantime, tell through physio everything, blog and keep a pain log. Its all a bit scary so I won't let anything be missed
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Post by JC on May 11, 2011 6:07:27 GMT -5
It's interesting because I got that same feeling when I was in the pancreatic surgeon's office. Everyone in there had end stage cancer, looked jaundiced, they were old. And there I was, the youngest person in the room and actually had the ability to walk in there unlike some people in there. It doesn't mean that your symptoms are any easier to deal with but it does help cope with the pain and stress from having these problems. I know you will handle this the right way Cherry. I have confidence that you'll get to the bottom of this.
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Post by KSA on May 11, 2011 7:35:09 GMT -5
Awww yes girls looking at other helps appreciate what we have.
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Post by cherry on May 14, 2011 15:54:02 GMT -5
I am in so much pain today that I've cried several times like a big baby, nasty sensations down my legs. My chair in work was the issue and I've actually had cross words with the manager on duty cos he wants to do a dtupid workstation assessment again. They did one, stupid adjustable backrest doesn't work. I'm just in a very bad place at this moment. I'm actually angry at everything going on around this and the sensations in my back and legs have triggered vomiting and intense feelings of sickness which as you know is misery to the point where you just want to be sick so you can feel better. I'm just overwrought cherry. I had to just flip my shizzle somewhere before I cry at my desk. Thank you!
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Post by Karen on May 14, 2011 16:17:39 GMT -5
Oh, no, Cherry, that doesn't sound good at all! I'm sorry you're having such an awful time, particularly at work. I don't know what to say/do other than I'm sending you a big 'ol hug! xx
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Post by cherry on May 14, 2011 19:47:46 GMT -5
I honestly wanted to take my left leg off and beat myself unconscious with it. The manager is going on about having the computer monitor at the wrong eye-level could be causing my problems and I wanted to honestly scratch his eyes out. I'm still a bit upset so I'll get my bum to bed and get happy in my sleep. Thanks for the hug Karen. You too Hels. I honestly felt like I could lose my sh*t over this. Think I'm angry about the appointment and it's the first time that I've been able to actually show upset. I hate how it can hurt so damn much it literally rivals my endo cos the pain travels from the back to the front. Then there's shooting pains and general feeling of 'hurt' and unpleasant tingling in my lower back and legs that literally induces the need to be sick. My body astounds me right now.
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Post by JC on May 15, 2011 7:46:08 GMT -5
The computer monitor is at the wrong eye level....... why I outta....... what an ASS! People are so stupid with their stupid little "Oh it's just this, fix it, that's your problem." I HATE when people pop up with such a stupid and simple fix and think they've saved the world, especially when they have no clue what you're going through. I really hate how you have to wait for that appointment and deal with these symptoms. I wish there was something I could do to help. I'm sorry Cherry.
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Post by cherry on May 15, 2011 9:05:34 GMT -5
Me too J. I want so much to apologised for the dramatics but st through same time it seems like the only reaction I can have. I'll book a double appointment tomorrow as this can't go on. I called in sick today and will not be back in til May 21st. Aargh I'm clueless about what to do. Sleep if I sit still too long. I just feel too 'ill' overall to make the most of the day off. It makes me sad and I'm at the point that I can't hide it anymore.
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Post by Karen on May 15, 2011 9:13:55 GMT -5
I'm glad you called in sick. Sounds like you need some time to deal with the pain on your own and not under the watchful eye of others. I wish there was something we could do for you! Let us know when you get an appointment, k?
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Post by cherry on May 15, 2011 9:40:26 GMT -5
Honestly, the fact that you guy are all here and understand is probably the most I could hope for at this moment. So thank you, truly. And what you said about dealing with it privately makes so much sense. I am scatter brained with all of this today so just that one bit of sensible thinking is like words from heaven haha. I couldn't sleep much last night so I think I'll let myself nap a bit. Kitties are here and I'm sat in bed in a half laying down position, feels better, yay.
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Post by 1234 on May 15, 2011 12:51:28 GMT -5
I have had lots of odd numbness on the right side of my body over the years, from a combination of pretty strong scoliosis and a misguided dream of being a professional dancer (dance training just twists your back further). I made it for 1 year, before I had to admit my body just couldn't do it at that level. However, the pain and numbness only went away after I put up my leotards and pointe shoes for good and had done about a year of yoga. My back is about 30 degrees straighter now than it was 3 years ago.
The pain wasn't as intense as what you are describing, but I just wanted to hold out hope that a out-of-place spine or pelvis could cause a lot of pain/numbness, if it's running into nerves. Hope you get an answer soon.
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Post by cherry on May 15, 2011 13:46:54 GMT -5
Yeah I totally appreciate where you're coming from with that myrtle because I definitely feel that nerve compression is involved somewhere with the terrible pain I've had with the seats in work and also the fact that I have a curve in my lower spine. Its just that with all of the other factors (theres so much peppered throughout this topic) it looks to be something more. Maybe all the same problem, maybe separate issues. One thing I've found is that the Muay Thai training, with all of the stretching and discipline with getting the right stances etc, has really been a relief. I try to pull my backside in now that I know I walk like a duck (I took a quick look in the mirror and it looks really bad) and I seriously need to start yoga. I appreciate the advice, it reminds me that theres hope with the pain through exercise.
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Post by gemstone on May 15, 2011 15:49:00 GMT -5
Aww, baby girl, I'm glad you're home today and have a few days off to yourself. You know we're all here for you, and I wish I could give you my leg to beat me with instead of you!! Yoga is really good, I've decided to start - we should do it together (in spirit) and compare notes
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Post by painttheseconds on May 15, 2011 17:46:47 GMT -5
Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you Cherry. I'm glad you have some time away from work.
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Post by cherry on May 16, 2011 3:23:26 GMT -5
Gem that sounds like a plan! The yoga thing not beating you with your leg. That idea was to help me get in a cheeky nap by knocking myself out. Aw paint thanks. I think I'd love to go to work and get a chair and hack it up with an axe. I hate the damn things. My special mousemat and backrest will be stolen I guess, I left them out thinking I was gonna be back in work the next day. And we hotdesk. Bye, stuff! Can't say I'll miss em. I know this is utter drivel and paranoia but cos I've tried GnRHa 3 times I'm scared about that affecting my back bone and causing all of this. I hate to drop that bomb but its been on my mind for months
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