aaaagggghhhhh!!! Pain!!!!!!!!!

[endomommy]

Ok I need to let out some frustration!!!
Yesterday started my flare. I've not had a flare this bad in a while! I don't even know what I did to set it off (if there is any logic to that even!). I can't even walk tonight without such awful sharp stabbing pains in my lower pelvis! aaaggghhhhhh!!!!!!! I'm so sick of pain!!! I could cry, scream or something!
My endo pain I've been dealing with for too long now! I've had surgery for it almost every year! I'm tired of the medical bills and of the pain running my life.
It sucks that I can't take control of my body. The worst part is I need to be careful what I say around my mom. She feels guilty for my endo pain because she feels she must have done something wrong in her pregnancy for me to be born with only half a uterus and my left fallopian tube not connected to my uterus. I couldn't have biological children and my endo pain is so deep into my tissue walls that the Dr's can't remove it all. It's just a deal with the pain until it gets to bad and then do more surgery. uuuggghhhhh! Not to mention I also have IC and broke my ankle a couple years back and have pain issue due to this also. I feel like I'm just a walking mess of pain!
I'm tired of having to take ibuprofen and percocet to ease the pain, because then I don't sleep at night like I should and it adds to the issues also. uuugghhhhhhh. Somebody help me!!!!

[Karen]

Aw, I don't know what to say. I've gone through some awful, awful time periods where I felt just awful for months with no end in sight and it's a helpless feeling. If anything, know that you're not in this alone, k?

[sweety]

So sorry you are feeling this way.. Its hard to imagine what you might be going through.. and.. We all do have our times of frustration when we get fed up of all of it and cant take it anymore!! Hang in there.. and like Karen says 'you are not alone' We all are there for each other!.. ((hugs)) ((hugs))

[hellsbells]

You poor thing - wish I could take some of it away for you!

[JC]

Aw I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. Is it like this all the time? Do you ever get any relief?
I hope you get better soon!

[endomommy]

Thanks ladies
No it's not always like this....although at times it sure feels like it! The pain sure seems to be a continuous cycle from one to the other. My ankle pain is pretty much a daily issue, because I broke it so severely, 180 degree break they tell me. My joint was so damaged that there is nothing they can do for me, I can't walk without a limp and it will never work right again; worst part is I broke it while working with my special needs daughter. She was starting a major meltdown and I was trying to calm her down when it happened.
As far as the endo goes...it seems we do surgery at the end of the year and by this time it's back......uuugggghhhhhh!!!! But with this last surgery....I didn't get much of a break form the pain! After my surgery that's when the interstitial cyctitis came on and I've been dealing with that pain almost on a daily basis. So when I started to have the endo pain on top of that.....uuuggghhh!!! I'm so sick of it!!! There has to be something they can do for this.....besides surgery all the time.
I'm trying to be tough....but...I'm at the end of my rope. And just in case that was not enough....let's throw in a few more interesting events...last fall my husband got sick with pneumonia and complications with h1n1. He was on life support for a week! Almost lost him...he's still recovering! It's a long haul. My special needs daughter....she was adopted at 2 1/2 years and she has rad, fas, odd, bipolar and the list goes on. It's been a 6 year battle with her. So I have my hands full....and I don't even know what I'm doing anymore....just trying to keep my head above water!
I'm trying to really watch my diet...but with the ic also...it really cuts out a lot of options! I'm getting on my vitamins again...i stopped because of the ic. Didn't know what was causing my ic triggers and needed to investigate all options. So that's my story. Uggghhhhh. Sorry. I know I must seem so negative right now. Thanks for listening and for writing back!

[pretty]

Hey there...

I am sitting here thinking about how what the boards do is let us see that we're not the only ones, and I'm so sorry that you have to go thru all this, but your story is helping other people, even if it's just putting it in perspective. I am so sorry you are hurting so bad. I hope there's some relief for you coming soon! Hang in there! Pretty (was feeling sorry for myself until I read your post)