Post by chloelouise on Mar 29, 2007 19:50:40 GMT -5
So here's the thing, Life is tough at the best of times, constant pain, heavy bleeding, bowel problems and the emotioanal rollar coaster.
I am relieved to know what is wrong but it doesnt make life any easier. Then this afternoon I had a thought...
God didnt give me a smile not to use it
SO, there I was thinking what I could do to cheer myself up, the things I use to enjoy so much I cant really do now because they are too physical and Im just not up to it. (going for long walks, cycling, swimming, working out etc etc )
So you wanna know what I did??
I PAINTED MY FINGER AND TOE NAILS RED
and I feel fantastic!!!!!!
I spend so much of my life at the minute thinking about the future and how (although the doctors tell me it will) I cant possibly see things being worse then they already are!
I feel cheated out of the life I thought I would have, the kids, the career. Im sure you all know what Im talking about.
Then, there it was... staring right at me, bright red/pink nail polish! How fantastic?!!! It bright, its slightly wackie, its everything I use to be and hey I feel like Ive been given a little bit of myself back, all because Ive painted my nails!
Im sure you all think Ive completely lost my mind but why not try it?
Do something that through all the pain (physical and emotioanl) will make you feel great, paint your nails, eat a cookie, read your favourite book, ask someone to tell you a joke. If you've had a few days stuck in bed open the window stick your head out and breathe in the fresh air! Feel fabulous, feel gorgeous, feel like the great person you are!
Even if it doesnt last very long maybe for just a few precious moments you too will feel fantastic!
I hope you're not feeling too rotten and if this does inspire you to do something to make you feel great I'd love to know what it is and how it made you feel!
I am relieved to know what is wrong but it doesnt make life any easier. Then this afternoon I had a thought...
God didnt give me a smile not to use it
SO, there I was thinking what I could do to cheer myself up, the things I use to enjoy so much I cant really do now because they are too physical and Im just not up to it. (going for long walks, cycling, swimming, working out etc etc )
So you wanna know what I did??
I PAINTED MY FINGER AND TOE NAILS RED
and I feel fantastic!!!!!!
I spend so much of my life at the minute thinking about the future and how (although the doctors tell me it will) I cant possibly see things being worse then they already are!
I feel cheated out of the life I thought I would have, the kids, the career. Im sure you all know what Im talking about.
Then, there it was... staring right at me, bright red/pink nail polish! How fantastic?!!! It bright, its slightly wackie, its everything I use to be and hey I feel like Ive been given a little bit of myself back, all because Ive painted my nails!
Im sure you all think Ive completely lost my mind but why not try it?
Do something that through all the pain (physical and emotioanl) will make you feel great, paint your nails, eat a cookie, read your favourite book, ask someone to tell you a joke. If you've had a few days stuck in bed open the window stick your head out and breathe in the fresh air! Feel fabulous, feel gorgeous, feel like the great person you are!
Even if it doesnt last very long maybe for just a few precious moments you too will feel fantastic!
I hope you're not feeling too rotten and if this does inspire you to do something to make you feel great I'd love to know what it is and how it made you feel!