Jenn
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Post by Jenn on Nov 3, 2006 0:29:19 GMT -5
So the past few days have been VERY painful!!! I feel terrible about everything! I feel like crying for no reason! All I seem to be able to get done is taking care of my son. My house needs cleaned and I feel like such a failure! I am a stay at home mom and I can't even keep the house cleaned! I also have a hard time getting in the mood to have sex and if I am in the mood I end up being in pain. It sucks b/c we are trying to have a baby too. My husband is so sweet and understanding but, I feel like he deserves so much more than I can give him and I just feel like laying in bed a few days and crying...and sleeping! All I wanna do is sleep! I am sooooooo tired ALL the time even when I get a good nights sleep! I just worthless! I am so glad this site is her b/c I really needed to get that out!
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Post by ouchy on Nov 3, 2006 1:09:29 GMT -5
Hey, Jenn! I understand your rant completely!!! You must be congratulated, though, on taking care of the MOST IMPORTANT thing--your SON! I understand about not being able to even maintain the house. I was married one week before my 23rd birthday--and my endo was at its worst (This was before my first lap.). I was young, looked healthy on the outside, but couldn't even stand long enough to do the ironing! Newlyweds are supposed to have a lot of sex, right--that was DEFINITELY out of the question! My poor husband! I felt like he got this broken wife and had to get her all fixed up! Sometimes I still feel like that, and now that my pain is coming back again, he sometimes says flippant things like, "We haven't had sex in a month!" I also used to feel like he deserved better, and I even once told him that I'd understand if he needed to go elsewhere for sex!--don't know what I was thinking!!! That actually insulted him. Just remember what my husband told me--you got married for BETTER OR FOR WORSE! Sometimes, we aren't at our best, but we always GIVE our best! I'm sure your husband realizes that you do a great job with your son, regardless of the fact that the endo is so debilitating right now! Anyway, hugs!!! I think you're doing an awesome job coping! I never had the added responsibility of a child to take care of! You are awesome, and you're definitely a role model for me! HUGS!!!
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