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Post by candice on Oct 29, 2006 20:54:41 GMT -5
:(Do you every have a day when you try really, really hard to be happy? Today, after a while of being sad, I finally woke up happy. I did everything I could to keep the mood. Then, my stupid husband (who I love even when he's this stupid) had to remind me of how incapable I am of making him happy. We had a nice breakfast together and then went to Niagara on the Lake. It was such a nice day. Then, when we got home, he just had to grab me in a sexual way that I particularly dislike and find somewhat painful. And it all came flooding back. I`m back into my mood and Its even worse now then before, because for a few short hours, I forgot how broken I am. I know it`s melodramatic but Ì can`t help it. I`m just dying for him to do or say something right. To make me feel like less of a failure of a wife. But, he can`t. Hes too busy being in his own mood abotu the whole thing. Neither of us seems capable of meeting the others needs. It`s so depressing. Anyway, thanks for letting me rant.
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Post by cherry on Oct 29, 2006 21:01:22 GMT -5
That is the worst thing, they understand to a certain point but expect you to snap out of it every so often for that one little half hour. Would that we could. And they don't seem to realise that maybe, we do realise what we can't do, and that it adds to the pain of everything else. And that we torture ourselves with imagining how they must feel disgusted or rejected, or worse imagining how much easier it would be with someone else. Not the messy old endo ridden you. They dont know that half of the time we even grit our teeth and bear the pain, and try to take from it what we can, try to enjoy that at least we can be intimate sometimes. I hope he snaps out of it, especially after the nice day you had x
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