I know I haven't been around for a while but it's just that I felt that I let myself down after not being able to stick to the endo diet as I planned to do and felt so ashamed of myself. I think I went into hiding for a while. I mentioned in another thread that I had a mini chocolate yule log during a Christmas lunch and a chocoloate cupcake, a glass of champagne and then I ate a homemade pizza base smothered with honey. Yikes! I'm now trying to eat healthy again and Im freaking out.
I was telling my mom the other day that I wish i was diagnosed with another disease instead of endo simply because that way I could eat whatever I want. This sucks.
On top of it my hubby and I are trying to go in for IVF but the paperwork here is taking forever and I feel like I'm running out of time. I recently noticed that sometimes it hurts a bit during sex and I haven't told this to my hubby thinking he'll worry or worse freak out. I so want children and I spent hours dreaming of my little one and I feel like everytime I wish to get pregnant someone else announces that they are having a baby and it's so depressing.
I keep saying baby steps but whenever I take 1 step forward I feel as if I'm taking 10 steps back. I never had a issue with my diet before I was diagnosed but now my body is reacting in crazy ways. Will I be able to climb this mountain?
So you fell off the wagon a bit, we all do. Pick yourself back up and try again! Allow yourself a pity party for a little while, and then pick it up and turn it into action, k? If you want some direction from someone else, see below.
If you're up for some reading for an eye-opening emotional boost and a different perspective on what you're trying to do to help your body, I recommend, "It Starts With Food". It an easy read and goes into full detail why people with disease - just about ANY disease - can benefit from cleaning up their diet, and why certain foods/types can actually promote illnesses. There's a correlation between what you eat and your immune system, which is likely why your body is reacting in crazy ways. Once you figure it out, it's incredibly empowering and a lot less overwhelming - I promise!
And as for pain during sex, if you can, look into pelvic physical therapy. It can totally help! If you can, find one trained in visceral release.
Endometriosis: The Complete Reference for Taking Charge of Your Health by Mary Lou Ballweg & The Endometriosis Association is my go-to book for information & treatment options. ******************************** Taking Charge of Your Fertility by Toni Wexler is my go-to book for understanding the menstrual cycle, hormones, and fertility indicators.
We have all cheated on the endo diet…..that’s what makes us human. Just start over and try again….that’s the best we can do! And, don’t forget, for some of us, no matter how hard we try, there are some foods we just can’t give up…do your best, that’s all you can ask of yourself! Chin up!
Knowledge is Power - the more you know about endo, the less control it has over you!
I think if you told me you stuck to the endo diet 110% all the time I'd accuse you of being a machine. It's a damn difficult and restrictive diet to be on and we all cheat every so often. I think you need to allow yourself a cheat day and it's totally fine. If anything, it helps you see how you react to certain foods and might even renew your motivation to stay on the diet. Don't beat yourself up!
"I am only one, but I am one. I cannot do everything, but I can do something. And I will not let what I cannot do interfere with what I can do." -Edward Everett Hale
First off, there is no fast and true "endo diet." There are suggestions of foods to eliminate to see how they affect you, but what works for one person does not necessarily work for another. It is very individual. I guess the important question is do you have decreased symptoms when you are sticking with your diet changes?
I have tried some diet changes including gluten free but I haven't found much effect on my symptoms or controlling it. I still am gkuten free in some aspects and eat healthy in general, but I have had a lot of difficulty coming to terms with the fact that it may not be helping (especially since so much of this disease is so darn uncontrollable). Figure out what foods make you feel the best, and try to use that good feeling as motivation to keep it up. Remember, food is not the enemy and you are never a bad person for eating anything!
Oh you guys are amazing! Thanks so much for all the support. Last evening I made tiny pavlovas for my friend's birthday party and I didn't touch one, I didn't taste the meringue mix and I was so proud. Usually I can't help myself, so yay! Like you guys said I'm going to keep trying to eat healthy and Karen, I'm going to look for that book and get a copy. A big big hug