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Post by sunshine44 on Jun 17, 2011 1:48:29 GMT -5
Wow what an inspiring thread! Keri you really quite something and your post was just what I needed to start feeling more positive after a couple of rough weeks.
Why don't you have your own Playboy Mansion party?
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Post by JC on Jun 17, 2011 5:36:04 GMT -5
YEAH! Good idea! I wanna go to a playboy party!
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Post by KSA on Jun 17, 2011 7:30:44 GMT -5
LOL I may just do that...I need a pool tho and a grotto I may have to tell Seth to start taking more criminal cases to get that tho and I think I am ok with the divorces and dui's for now. If I can find someone to throw it with a pool I can def bring the girls;)
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Post by lur6 on Jun 20, 2011 7:55:34 GMT -5
Keri, I'm in tears reading your post. You said everything perfect. Sometimes I need reassurance to know that it's ok to feel like sh*t. I often times try to hide how bad I feel because I'm tired of that being the only thing people will talk to me about. But you're so right! Plan my life the way I want! Thank you!
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Post by KSA on Jun 21, 2011 0:31:04 GMT -5
Awwww I am glad you got something from it. Its ok to feel sick we are sick it is not our choice no one would ever choose to be like this. We all have a happy face but still feel pain and that is ok too I do it too. Endo can crush a spirit and I do not want to see that happen to any of us. The happy faces can be real we do not have to fake it. We may not get the choice to have this but we sure can deal with it in a positive way. Smiles all around to my ENDO girls and a big hug to you lur6:)
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Post by lur6 on Jun 21, 2011 14:22:42 GMT -5
Thank you!!
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Post by KSA on Jun 22, 2011 11:08:17 GMT -5
My dear friends mother passed away this week from a battle with cancer. Today I found out another dear friend has ovarian cancer that has spread. I am in a complete crying mood. When I talked to her and she told me the news I could not hold it together I cried. She is handling things so well a inspiration to me.
The funeral for my friends mom is friday and thursday the calling hours. ROUGH week girls I am pulling thru with alot of positive energy I have built up but some days a cry is what we need to make it thru a day. The poem below is one I gave my girlfriend who just got her diagnosis by also had file divorce a few months ago. Divorce and cancer all at once. I gave it to her with the hopes it would help her with the process it helped me when I had my divorce. Today tho this poem can be used for any reasons I gain a little bit of insight each time I read it. My agenda for years has been awarenss for our bodies, our lives our spirits. It makes me proud to say that I can cry and have a reason for it and do something about how I feel.....Enjoy the poem girls.
Yesterday, I cried. I came home, went straight to my room, sat on the edge of my bed, kicked off my shoes, unhooked my bra, and I had myself a good cry. I cried until my nose was running all over the silk blouse I got on sale. I cried until my ears were hot. I cried until my head was hurting so bad that I could hardly see the pile of soiled tissues lying on the floor at my feet. I want you to understand, I had myself a really good cry yesterday.
Yesterday, I cried, for all the days that I was too busy, or too tired, or too mad to cry. I cried for all the days, and all the ways, and all the times I had dishonored, disrespected, and disconnected my Self from myself, only to have it reflected back to me in the ways others did to me the same things I had already done to myself. I cried for all the things I had given, only to have them stolen; for all the things I had asked for that had yet to show up; for all the things I had accomplished, only to give them away, to people in circumstances, which left me feeling empty, and battered and plain old used. I cried because there really does come a time when the only thing left for you to do is cry.
Yesterday, I cried. I cried because little boys get left by their daddies; and little girls get forgotten by their mommies; and daddies don't know what to do, so they leave; and mommies get left, so they get mad. I cried because I had a little boy, and because I was a little girl, and because I was a mommy who didn't know what to do, and because I wanted my daddy to be there so badly until I ached.
Yesterday, I cried. I cried because I hurt. I cried because I was hurt. I cried because hurt has no place to go except deeper into the pain that caused it in the first place, and when it gets there, the hurt wakes you up. I cried because it was too late. I cried because it was time. I cried because my soul knew that I didn't know that my soul knew everything that I needed to know. I cried a soulful cry yesterday, and it felt so good. It felt so very, very bad. In the midst of my crying, I felt my freedom coming, Because...
Yesterday, I cried with an agenda.
by Iyanla Vanzant
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Post by painttheseconds on Jun 22, 2011 15:43:54 GMT -5
I'm so sorry for the loss of your friends Mother and the news of your friends Cancer. Sometimes life just seems so unfair. Thank you so much for sharing that poem. I've been pretty weepy the past few days myself and that poem really touched my heart. Thinking of you and your friends. Much love and light to all of you.
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Post by Karen on Jun 22, 2011 18:59:24 GMT -5
Aw, Keri, I'm so sorry you have so much on your heart at the moment. I'm sure your friends appreciate your support, love, and kind words. And that poem made me cry! Very pertinent.
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Post by KSA on Jun 22, 2011 21:42:18 GMT -5
Thanks girls I turned my christmas lights on my tree today as a symbol of the light all of us have. Her and I share a love of christmas she is a New Years baby and keeps a nice primtive tree up all year too. I want to ejoy her so I am going to take her to one of her favorite places next week to keep her mind off all of it. She will make it thru this she is a strong independent woman.
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Post by KSA on Jun 26, 2011 21:09:46 GMT -5
"I may not be there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday"~Unknown~ I am going back to work tomorrow and can not wait although my arm is still giving me issues I will continue therapy. Wish me luck girls I need it I am nervous and everyone at work has been stand off with me so I have no idea what I am walking into. As long as I can do my job and my patrons are happy I am not worried about coworkers. I work hard but do not want to push it bc I am worried I will put the happy face but deep down feel the pain. I cant not wait to get back and then NYC weekend for 4th of July I just keep going. I take my breaks as I need to doi it prob spend alot by the rooftop pool relaxing and a little shoppin..... send any words of wisdom for me.
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Post by Karen on Jun 27, 2011 5:51:49 GMT -5
I hope your first day back goes well! I'm sure it must be hard for your coworkers to understand why you don't heal like everyone else, but I'm sure today will be fine! Wear something that makes you feel good, including your smile, and walk In there with your head up. You have no reason not to!
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Post by JC on Jun 27, 2011 8:35:58 GMT -5
Good luck with your first day Keri! I hope it goes well. That poem you have above, I actually have that saved on my computer. I love that poem.
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Post by KSA on Jun 27, 2011 19:11:40 GMT -5
I came home from work and a docs appt at about 6 today a full day for me. I was upset I work with alot of woman and only one asked how I was or if I felt ok. The rest pretty much ignored me. I was so happy to be back and focused on my wonderdul patrons. What made my day tho was a piece of mail that I got from our Dr. Jenaya. A shoe script LOL! I love it and all the catty woman at work were invisible to me when I saw her card. Love You Jenaya! I bet we picked out cards for each other the same day cause I have one coming to you that I had hoped it would be hand deliverd but now will be mailed. It was a hard day but I made it and when I can fill my time card out and I have worked the full day I feel complete. Silly I know but it means so much to me to feel like a NORMAL person. Today I feel normal Attachments:
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Post by Karen on Jun 27, 2011 21:12:57 GMT -5
That is freaking awesome, Keri! (Nice work, Jenaya!!)
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