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Post by KSA on May 19, 2011 9:24:41 GMT -5
Thank you! WoW what a week the circle of life has touched me so much. Jacob is growing into a young man, a friend is becoming a married woman with a amazing man, my doctor is opening a fab one stop shop for our community and today I found out a patron passed away. My live like you're dying philosophy of life holds true every day. My patron came in every day with a smile and story about life and the ability to touch me with just a look and a tip of his hat. He never complained and had a calmness of the worry free life that most of us strive to get all our life. I think he was born with it. Nelson was sick tho and I had no idea. His passing is a great loss to our library and the community. I feel so lucky to say I got to meet him, help him, and see him smile. He is amish and they have calling hrs in the morning I won't be able to attend I have my niece but I think he knows I am typing this and I was touched by him even tho I can't be there. In times like these with all the good and bad I can learn and continue to know that everything happens for a reason.
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Post by JC on May 19, 2011 9:33:41 GMT -5
Awww how sad! But what a sweet story.
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Post by KSA on Jun 10, 2011 20:08:48 GMT -5
I got very discouraged today with news that I have a acl shoulder seperation injury on my right arm from a fall leaving work. I was walking so proud last week a pretty dress and ruffle heals. I had a wondeful day at work answered a few reference questions. Today I was told I will be off work for a week or more I am so sad summer reading for me brings so much life into me. I love seeing my little readers so excited to check out a book. Almost everyone I know complains about work. They don't get that sometimes even a job makes me feel like I'm living when its taken away I feel like a part of me is lost. Yesterday I was asked to start updating the library systems facebook page with my photographs I have taken of the library events and displays. I work each month on displays for paperbacks and movies always a new theme so I was honored when asked to be a part of the facebook page our entire community can see everything. While I am out I plan on updatiing so I can still be connected and feel like I am living. Its not easy to type and hurts like heck to do it on my phone but some how I will manage. My community support keeps me going in the end even tho I fell I was told by a coworker I fell to save someone else. They filled the hole I tripped in immedietly so its ok no one else will be hurt and I can rest this week knowing my patrons are safe.
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Post by pretty on Jun 11, 2011 0:19:59 GMT -5
awwwww Keri! that's so cool though they recognize your networking talents and they picked the right person for their FB page! and you already promote it so well, you will get a lot of joy from that I bet! Rest up well and feel better soon xxx
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Post by omaklackey on Jun 11, 2011 1:40:47 GMT -5
that is very cool and im sure you can figure out how to do it one handed! hope your shoulder heals up well!!
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Post by Karen on Jun 11, 2011 6:44:49 GMT -5
That's the perfect assignment for you!
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Post by lur6 on Jun 13, 2011 19:33:19 GMT -5
Ok, don't judge my pessimistic response. :-(
I want so badly to also live everyday like it's my last. But lets say you book a big trip or an outside adventure..you wake up that day and your sick. I find it so hard to go about my daily routine let alone do something special. I would be devastated if I had to cancel because I was sick or feel horrible going in a trip while sick.
I guess my problem seems to be that everyday I am off from work (days when I could do something fun) I seem to have a flare-up of endo pain and intestinal endo stuff. The first few times I had to cancel planned events I just rescheduled, but now I get pissed when I have to cancel. I feel like no matter what the odds are against me, so why bother planning anything fun or out of my routine.
My question is..how do you handle it? How do you stay positive?
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Post by KSA on Jun 13, 2011 21:14:33 GMT -5
I have really hard days but I still try to smile if I can. I make each day like it could be my last because I came very close to not being here on a few occasions. When I started this thread I already had one close to death experience and since have had another so my appreaciation for life and staying positive is based on knowing that life is short and the pain we feel even tho it seems we can not make it another day we can. Each of us handles endo in a different way I for a long time let it control my life and didnt even realize I was doing it. Then I took a look at the life I was living and knew I could not do all I wanted but each day something could be done to help me recover and maintain a healthy life. Our Mind, body and soul is all connected I have been told this by some awesome doctors that I have met on my path. If I canceled my plans each time I felt awful alot would be missed so how I do it is this if I really want to do something endo pain, seizure or any other of my issues could come up I am suspected lupus as well. So I plan a event or a outing and I do what I can. If that means vacation and I stay half the days in bed so be it atleast I got to go. Or if I have a party and I end up curled up in bed a few hours after my guests will have plenty to entertain themselves and some will gather by my bed and encourage me to try to make it down if I can. Sometimes I do and sometimes I dont. In december I had my charity event months of planning went into it and I was in awful shape. No way could I go to the event but I was able to set it up. I had a wonderful feeling of being able to accomplish a goal and in the end raised almost $2,000.
Life is full of things we can not do. I can not go to a bbq and eat anything I want or lay in the sun but I can go to the bbq and wear a hat in the sun. I modify my life for what fits me and Lur6 you will too. You just have to find your routine, how you want to do things and when you have pain and you cant do anything then you dont and people will understand. If they do not understand then they are not worth having in life.
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Post by KSA on Jun 13, 2011 21:33:51 GMT -5
Friends can help too get a core group of wonderful girls together that help each other and life seems to get a little easier. "A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be." ~Douglas Pagels~ Attachments:
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Post by JC on Jun 13, 2011 21:34:38 GMT -5
Keri, you never cease to amaze me. I'm so glad to know you. It's truly a blessing.
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Post by 1234 on Jun 14, 2011 6:20:08 GMT -5
Keri, that was an amazing post. Thank you.
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Post by gemstone on Jun 14, 2011 6:38:14 GMT -5
Keri, you always make me remember why I'm smiling!
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Post by KSA on Jun 14, 2011 21:51:21 GMT -5
Wish I had a picture of all of us! My endo girls have helped me in the hard times too. All of you mean so much to me. When I get down I know I can always log on and get wonderful support and love on here. Thank you!
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Post by JC on Jun 15, 2011 8:31:47 GMT -5
Keri, I'm convinced that you keep an arsenal of hot girls with you at all times. LOL. Every time I see your pictures posted on facebook I feel like I'm in the playboy mansion! Such gorgeous friends you have!
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Post by KSA on Jun 15, 2011 11:09:41 GMT -5
It is a goal with the girls to make it into the mansion ummm its a process pictures have to be submitted and so on Jenaya you would make it in for sure HOTTIE!...lol I will have to sneak in. Im all natural and well most of them have had enhancements and work out every day! Amazing bodies that all of them work at keeping. We are in our 30's and up so it is work... I kinda just want to go and hang by the pool and interview Mr. Hefner the rest of the girls would GO PARTY. I would hang out for movie night tho and prob get to see Marilyn on big screen. Thanks Jenaya they are all bombshells;)
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