Post by meka on Jul 24, 2006 13:13:20 GMT -5
Just a rant . . . need to let it out.
I haven’t been in this much pain since a year ago, when I landed myself in the emergency room. This is frighteningly different than my regular period and post-period pain. It almost feels like I tore or twisted an abdominal muscle. I know another ER trip will just award me another prescription . . . but maybe vicodin isn’t such a bad idea right now. At least I’d be able to SLEEP!
My period started 6 days ago, and 3 days into it the real agony started. It hurt so much, but I couldn’t cry because the heaving would make the pain worse. I was faint, exhausted, and my temperature went up to 101 F; it’s normally under 98.6. I couldn’t even eat; it started hurting a few moments after I swallowed anything. All kinds of problems at the toilet, too (I’ll spare you those details). I couldn’t even take in deep breaths. I used to be able to take one Aleve, and it would work for most of the day. This time I took two, and they didn’t work for a minute. AND THEN MY HEATING PAD BROKE!
I was determined not to let the endo-demon get the best of me. So the next day I took a 4-hour drive to visit my cousin, back home from the Navy. BIIIG mistake. EVERY bump in the road felt like someone was stabbing me in the abdomen. The whole drive I was saying, “Oooh, uuh, eeh, aahh, ohhh . . .” My cousin and his wife have a 9-month old son. I wanted to pick him up and crawl on the rug with him. But as soon as I picked him up he kicked me in the belly. OOOOOOhhhhh! From that point on I just had to wave to the baby and make silly faces from afar.
The next day the pain got worse: endo-demon’s magical powers, punishing me for trying to LIVE! My period was already over, but I could barely move, couldn’t sit up straight, couldn’t lie down straight. Still couldn’t eat or go to the bathroom without grimacing. My abdomen is rock hard. I’m wondering if a cyst can grow THAT much in just one month. So, I had to swallow my pride and call mama to come over and help me out for a couple of days (thank God for moms!).
I started feeling a tad better the next day, at least enough to get to the computer and type a rant to endo-resolved. But wouldn’t you know it; my computer froze just as I was getting into it. So I just went to bed instead.
I woke up the next morning (today) and was able to SEE the bulge that is causing so much pain. I’m lying down in bed, looking at my tummy. The swelling in the rest of the abdomen has started to soften and subside, but this hard baseball is still there. Now I’m feeling hypochondriatic because I’m afraid it might be a hernia. I was straining to put together some furniture the day after my period started (when the Aleve was still working), so maybe I ripped something. Oh, whoa is me!
Well, I have a gynecologist appointment today to discuss surgery options (or lack thereof), so I’m sure the doctor will be able to tell me what’s going on.
Aahhh . . . feel better now.
I haven’t been in this much pain since a year ago, when I landed myself in the emergency room. This is frighteningly different than my regular period and post-period pain. It almost feels like I tore or twisted an abdominal muscle. I know another ER trip will just award me another prescription . . . but maybe vicodin isn’t such a bad idea right now. At least I’d be able to SLEEP!
My period started 6 days ago, and 3 days into it the real agony started. It hurt so much, but I couldn’t cry because the heaving would make the pain worse. I was faint, exhausted, and my temperature went up to 101 F; it’s normally under 98.6. I couldn’t even eat; it started hurting a few moments after I swallowed anything. All kinds of problems at the toilet, too (I’ll spare you those details). I couldn’t even take in deep breaths. I used to be able to take one Aleve, and it would work for most of the day. This time I took two, and they didn’t work for a minute. AND THEN MY HEATING PAD BROKE!
I was determined not to let the endo-demon get the best of me. So the next day I took a 4-hour drive to visit my cousin, back home from the Navy. BIIIG mistake. EVERY bump in the road felt like someone was stabbing me in the abdomen. The whole drive I was saying, “Oooh, uuh, eeh, aahh, ohhh . . .” My cousin and his wife have a 9-month old son. I wanted to pick him up and crawl on the rug with him. But as soon as I picked him up he kicked me in the belly. OOOOOOhhhhh! From that point on I just had to wave to the baby and make silly faces from afar.
The next day the pain got worse: endo-demon’s magical powers, punishing me for trying to LIVE! My period was already over, but I could barely move, couldn’t sit up straight, couldn’t lie down straight. Still couldn’t eat or go to the bathroom without grimacing. My abdomen is rock hard. I’m wondering if a cyst can grow THAT much in just one month. So, I had to swallow my pride and call mama to come over and help me out for a couple of days (thank God for moms!).
I started feeling a tad better the next day, at least enough to get to the computer and type a rant to endo-resolved. But wouldn’t you know it; my computer froze just as I was getting into it. So I just went to bed instead.
I woke up the next morning (today) and was able to SEE the bulge that is causing so much pain. I’m lying down in bed, looking at my tummy. The swelling in the rest of the abdomen has started to soften and subside, but this hard baseball is still there. Now I’m feeling hypochondriatic because I’m afraid it might be a hernia. I was straining to put together some furniture the day after my period started (when the Aleve was still working), so maybe I ripped something. Oh, whoa is me!
Well, I have a gynecologist appointment today to discuss surgery options (or lack thereof), so I’m sure the doctor will be able to tell me what’s going on.
Aahhh . . . feel better now.