Post by jewels3795 on Aug 23, 2007 13:05:20 GMT -5
Well I don't know how much longer I will have a job. I have been more and more depressed as the passing months have gone by and the pain just keeps me from getting out of bed some days. I always made sure to keep my boss updated at keep informed about what I was doing to treat this problem. He kept telling me that is okay just keep him informed and he can work with me. Then last week out of nowhere he called me into a meeting with him and the human resources manager. They put down in a report that I have been repeated verbily warned about my absence (which the only time my absence was brought up was when I talked to my boss about it and there was never a warning) and that it is no longer acceptable. If I am so much as a minute late another day, miss another day of work, or leave even a minute early from work then I am terminated. All I could do was sit there and cry. I really don't like this job and want to find another one. But the problem is that then I would be without insurance for a while because most jobs require you to be there 90 days before the insurance will kick in. Also financially I can't just pick up and quit without getting a new job first. I am looking, but I haven't found anything. I am not married so I can't be on my boyfriends insurance. The stress is really getting to me. Now I not only have all the health problems really begining to weigh on me but now I have to worry about when will be the day that I am fired too. I am trying to keep my nose to the ground shut up and be here to work, but I find many days I just sit at my desk in so much pain I can't even stare at my computer. I'm just at a loss as to what to do next. Everyone at work keeps telling me to cheer up, it can't be that bad. I find myself wanting to walk in with a big sword and start stabbing people and then saying oh come on now the pain isn't that bad is it. Get over it, Get back to work. Perhaps then they would understand how it feels. I'm sorry for the rant I'm just not doing real great emotionally. I have an appt to see a counsler, but that isn't till Sept 5th. In the mean time I just try to ignore everyone here and stay away from them. It's just sad how we live in a world that doesn't believe that you could possibly telling the truth about being sick and that you must just be doing this to get out of work. Well I'll stop rambling on now.