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Post by cass on Jul 27, 2007 3:45:42 GMT -5
Im going to use this space to get all emotional. I just need to vent and i feel this is the only place that will allow me to do so as i feel noone else really cares about how ifeel. I have been doing the diet prepared by the dietitian which was low fibre. I still suffered frequent diarrohea and the aim of bulking my stools the natural way didnt work. I had severe diarrhea yesterday that i had to take an imodium just so i could spend some time away from the bathroom and go visit Kate in hospital which i had been wanting to all day. Today i had relief in the morning and I was in a good mood for that reason, however this afternoon i didnt even make it to the bathrrom with the suddon onset of cramps and diarrohea. Its been 2 months and im still suffering. I just dont want to do it anymore and themore this happens the more serious i am about not wanting to do it. I have to sit home every night and weekend as i am too scared to go out in public like this and i am unsure when i can even go back to work. Not only is it a strain physically and emotionally but i am feeling the effects financially as well. I just want to get better, Everyone i speak to that has had a bowel resection for endo given that the maximum they have had out is 25cm has not experienced my symptoms and im starting to get really afraid that this is ongoing and im going to have to live like this. .. i am so scared and upset and literally have just had enough.
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Post by cass on Sept 5, 2007 9:10:29 GMT -5
well its been quite a while since i updated this journal and jsut reading over my posts again bought back a whole lot of emotions! this has most defintiely been the biggest emotional and ohysiacl rollercosater of my life. its been really tough as its such a long process and i dotn have anyone that can relate to chronic diarrohea. reading over the posts has made me realise that i have in fact improved gradually over the 3 months. things arent as urgent as they once were which makes a huge difference. i still have a long way to go yet but im back at work full time and although i do go to the toilet quite often and sometimes i am literally sprinting. I am praying the diarrohea is not a permanent side effect. Fingers Crossed!!
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