Post by jessabug on Jul 28, 2011 18:42:28 GMT -5
HI! I decided to put this here because I'm *thinking* it's a mental health thing... but feel free to move me if you think it should be in a better spot!
I cannot believe what happened to me last night. So first, some background information (and yes, you can laugh): When I first got my period at 14, I could not for the life of me put a tampon in. I would try my damndest, but always end up fainting. Thing is, I wasn't afraid of blood, or the tampon hurting, or ANYTHING like that. Even once I got one in and went into the living room bursting with pride and was like "MOM! I DID ii-i-iiii-uughh" and barely got to a couch before I hit the floor. Anyway, it took about 2 years for me to finally start being able to get them in without problems. Then I went on my merry way for 5 years.
.......... BUT. After my lap, when I was changing out my NuvaRing last month, I got semi-woozy. I didn't think much of it because I was suffering from some pretty hardcore nausea due to a week's worth of constipation (yikes). So I forgot about it.
Then, last night, I had to switch out my rings again. It took me about 2 minutes to get it out because everytime I went fishing around in there with my fingers, the color would run out of my face and I'd get hot/cold flashes and start to go dizzy and woozy.
I think I've had an "a-ha" moment. Aside from the fact that I'm pretty pissed at myself for developing this ridiculous issue again, I think I may have figured it out. Ever since my surgery, and especially since it seems that there is still something wrong with me, I have been kind of afraid of my own vagina. I'm not sure if I'm afraid of hurting myself or what, but I think I might be having some sort of mental freak-out over my lady parts that I don't mean to be having. It's complicated because whatever it is, it's certainly subconscious, because I'm not having thoughts about it like "my vagina is gross" or "what if I hurt it."
OH! .. And I can still put in a tampon no problemo. Anyway, I'm curious as to your girls' thoughts on this pickle I've gotten myself into. Has this ever happened to you? What do you think is going on?!
I cannot believe what happened to me last night. So first, some background information (and yes, you can laugh): When I first got my period at 14, I could not for the life of me put a tampon in. I would try my damndest, but always end up fainting. Thing is, I wasn't afraid of blood, or the tampon hurting, or ANYTHING like that. Even once I got one in and went into the living room bursting with pride and was like "MOM! I DID ii-i-iiii-uughh" and barely got to a couch before I hit the floor. Anyway, it took about 2 years for me to finally start being able to get them in without problems. Then I went on my merry way for 5 years.
.......... BUT. After my lap, when I was changing out my NuvaRing last month, I got semi-woozy. I didn't think much of it because I was suffering from some pretty hardcore nausea due to a week's worth of constipation (yikes). So I forgot about it.
Then, last night, I had to switch out my rings again. It took me about 2 minutes to get it out because everytime I went fishing around in there with my fingers, the color would run out of my face and I'd get hot/cold flashes and start to go dizzy and woozy.
I think I've had an "a-ha" moment. Aside from the fact that I'm pretty pissed at myself for developing this ridiculous issue again, I think I may have figured it out. Ever since my surgery, and especially since it seems that there is still something wrong with me, I have been kind of afraid of my own vagina. I'm not sure if I'm afraid of hurting myself or what, but I think I might be having some sort of mental freak-out over my lady parts that I don't mean to be having. It's complicated because whatever it is, it's certainly subconscious, because I'm not having thoughts about it like "my vagina is gross" or "what if I hurt it."
OH! .. And I can still put in a tampon no problemo. Anyway, I'm curious as to your girls' thoughts on this pickle I've gotten myself into. Has this ever happened to you? What do you think is going on?!