Post by tigergirl10 on Oct 13, 2011 22:21:59 GMT -5
On the 23rd it will 3 months since my last injection of Lupron. Been having mild period like cramps but no flow. And backache. We been taking no precautions against pregnancy. We would be very happy if I get a positive result. The test 2 weeks ago was negative but we had lots of chances since then. If it is still negative off to the dr I go. Feeling so empty right now. All I want is a baby to call my very own. Hope Lupron didn't put me in permanent menopause at age 35.
I'm so sorry you're struggling with this. I don't know if it's comforting or just frustrating for me to say this, but please believe that just because you don't get pregnant this first cycle past Lupron, doesn't mean that you can't ever. I hope things start looking up for you soon.
Post by tigergirl10 on Oct 15, 2011 13:15:44 GMT -5
at first my dr told me my only hope to get pregnant was IVF. But the endometrosis had just ravaged my left side of my body. He said my right side looked completly normal. So that was encouraging. and when my gyno gave me my surgery in March, he said my tube and ovary looked fine. guess there is still hope, and I am hoping to still go natural. but I am nearly 35 and a half, and I don't have a lot of time left. never wanted to be one of these women who gives birth to her first child at age 40. and be the oldest mom at my kid's kidnergarten class. but looks like things are trending in that direction. My hopes and dreams were to get married by age 25 and get preg shortly after. I didn't get diagnosed with stage 4 endo til age 34 and nearly dying from it. guess life doesn't always turn out the way you planned. I will give it every fight my body has to have a least one child.
I'm glad you're holding on to hope and will give it every fight. Lupron takes a while to work its way out of your system and it can take several months for your periods to return. While it would be great if you got pregnant before even seeing your periods return; please, please don't be discouraged if you don't. You'll be able to put your best effort into TTC properly once your natural cycle returns and you can track things/have a better idea of when you're ovulating. I'm so sorry you're suffering and wish there was something I could do to help. Stay strong.
Post by smithbr1118 on May 9, 2013 12:39:07 GMT -5
My bf & I are splitting up after six and a half years. He keeps abusing my animals and I can’t take it anymore. I keep telling him that since I can’t have kids, my animals are more than just animals to me, but, he keeps doing it. Finally he made the ultimatum for me to choose him or the cat. I told him I choose him but I’m keeping the cat. He said if I’m keeping the cat, he’s leaving. So that’s that. He’s been slowly packing and moving stuff for the past three weeks. I also had to find my dog a new home quickly because he said he'd "take care of her" himself, I didn't know what that meant so I found her a new home. Luckily, my cat is afraid of him and stays away from him when he's around so there's no way he could catch the cat.
Then. . . the same day we got into our argument (April 16th), my stepmom was diagnosed with leukemia. She wasn't doing well at all. She’s had pneumonia, high grade fever, two strokes (one of which was severe), she hadn’t been awake for over two and a half weeks, couldn't breathe on her own, a blood clot in the brain (she was too weak to have the clot removed), on chemo, etc., etc., etc. She was taken off life support yesterday because she was not responding to treatment and in a vegetative state, she passed at 1:40 p.m. It breaks my heart to hear my dad cry. They have a 16 year old daughter and it plain SUCKS that she had to lose her mom right before mother's day. I've cried about ten times over this since I found out she passed yesterday; I hope and pray my dad and sister can carry on.
AND. . . to top it all off, I had to get on Lupron which I swore I would never do because of the side effects. I’m still open to having a complete hysterectomy, but the OB/GYN said it likely wouldn’t provide much relief since the adhesions are so dense because they’ve been there growing all these years. I think she’s right. I asked my OB/GYN for a mild antidepressant on the phone last friday morning and she was against it at the beginning of the phone call because it might interfere with the Lupron and we wouldn’t know what side effects might be coming from which drug. By the end of the phone call, she was urging me to go to my family doctor to get evaluated for depression that day, but I did not. Guess I sounded that bad to her; naturally, I was crying and couldn’t stop.
Also, since my relationship ended, I might have to sell my house because there’s no way I can pay all the bills myself during the winter slow season at work.
I’m getting shafted from all sides now, but, I’ll get through it. People do it everyday. I’m also so glad no one has hugged me (other than my mom); I would likely just break down and cry nonstop.
My mom came & visited me yesterday after she found out about my stepmom. I caught her crying when my cat was snuggling (comforting) me and I know she was thinking that I have no one to comfort me anymore since I live alone now with my cat. It still breaks my heart also that I can't give my mom and especially my dad grandbabies. My dad really cried a couple years ago when I told him that I likely would never have kids.
OK hon, anti-depressants are a normal drug to take w/ Lupron, I started Lexapro the same day I got my first shot, ALSO if you are not on progesterone replacement that can increase depression and fatigue. You're entitled to both an anti-depressant and some form of progestin when you're on Lupron. Since I've been on both I've been nearly side effect free.
I know that doesn't address all the other real life stresses, but not getting the right adjunct meds for Lurpon definitely doesn't help.
Post by smithbr1118 on May 15, 2013 11:47:57 GMT -5
So I still have my days when I'm feeling low about my relationship ending but my happy, single aunts have encouraging words for me.
My stepmom was buried this past Monday. I'm still so sad for my dad and sister but they seemed to be dealing better on Monday after the burial. I still get teary-eyed when I think of my young sister without a mom so I'm going to try to visit them (they live over two hours away) every time I have extra $$ for gas since she's now the only girl in their immediate family. I have two step-brothers and all her cousins are male, she needs females around her. She had only three weeks of school left to get through her junior year in high school, so I hope she decides to finish out her junior year. I told them that since I live alone, they're welcome to come stay with me for a night or weekend if they want to get away.
Post by smithbr1118 on May 24, 2013 11:04:23 GMT -5
Mustang, thank you so much for your kind words.
I'm going to try to start hanging out with (single) friends again. One of my guy friends is treating me to dinner this evening and we're meeting a few other friend there. I'm looking forward to it and also a bit afraid of doing something "on my own" again.
My ex (the first time I've referred to him as such) should be completely moved out of my house today. My mom will be moving in with me so as to help me with the mortgage and utilities, I'm happy she's moving in since she's one of my best girlfriends. Haha! When I got home on Tuesday I saw that my ex had taken some of his stuff and I sobbed like a teenager whose first boyfriend just dumped her. Sobbed so much it actually put me to sleep at 6pm. The following days, though, after more of his stuff was gone, I did just fine. "Dust yourself off and try again." Know what I'm afraid of? That I might have a couple drinks too many sometime and call him for a booty call! LOL.
Hopefully, I won't need to post in this thread ever again. Thank you ladies for putting up with my griping.