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Post by omaklackey on Jul 20, 2011 1:42:25 GMT -5
Im sorry you had the same experience! Its harder on those who know how bad it is. My hubby actually started CPR on me and his attitude towards my health changed after it. I think its all three of the reasons I said: pyschological, due to trauma, hormones, etc...
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Post by JC on Jul 30, 2011 3:24:07 GMT -5
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I woke up at 1am and now it's 4:30am. I really think it's from coming off the narcs. I'm in denial that I'm stuck like this. UGHH!!! Plus I'm having anxiety attacks in my damn sleep! WTF? Why can't I be normal?
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Post by omaklackey on Jul 30, 2011 4:15:02 GMT -5
Im still convinced the not sleeping is due to the anesthesia and stress of surgery! Tonight Im at work though, so not sleeping is a good thing, but when I get home.... Isnt it hard to heal when you cant sleep. It makes me twitchy and anxious and downright bitchy!!!!!
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Post by JC on Jul 30, 2011 9:27:33 GMT -5
I don't want to believe it's from the anesthesia because that would mean I'm stuck like this forever I'm going to wait out this narcotic business before I accept my fate. I had no idea how traumatic being in the hospital could be. I've had surgery before, I've been sedated before, but being under for hours and then hospitalized after... maybe it does have more effect on the body than I thought. Sigh...
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Post by hellsbells on Jul 30, 2011 11:20:09 GMT -5
Your body's undergone so many changes recently J - not just the surgery but the dietary changes too, having your folks to stay then leave - you've been under massive stress recently. The harder you fight it the worse it'll be. It'll take a while to get back to normal sweetie x
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Post by omaklackey on Jul 30, 2011 12:54:43 GMT -5
I definitely don't think its a permanent thing!! I just think it takes time, and you are so very fresh from surgery. Please give yourself some time to recover mentally and physically!! I wanted to talk to you last night when we were both awake. Things always look so much worse when you are tired don't they? I hate those "witching" hours when you can't sleep and your mind is going crazy.
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Post by JC on Jul 30, 2011 16:24:03 GMT -5
Yeah you're definitely right about everything being worse when you're laying awake sleepless. I was actually playing on Facebook talking to some friends who were drunk. It was pretty entertaining. Haha.
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Post by Lady Tewlie :P on Jul 30, 2011 23:13:37 GMT -5
I think I'm just now starting to get over the insomnia, and it has been close to 2 months. But I've had an extra difficult time, probably because I am allergic to ibuprofen, so I had a lot of swelling for a lot longer. Also, apparently recovering is more difficult for extra small people. I'm very short. I used to be very thin, and I'm still not super heavy, but I'm heavier than I used to be. Anyway, it turns out there is a woman in my office who had the same surgery a few years ago, and she is very short and very thin, and she told me it took her 3 full weeks to return to work. She said her doctor said smaller people often have a harder time recovering.
I have to take a ton of stimulants to keep from falling asleep from my narcolepsy, and I have only recently started needing to take it again - like in the past 2 weeks - and still in much lower doses.
I slept and napped pretty well the first week after the lap, but after that I couldn't nap, and I would lie awake until 5 am if I didn't take Ambien (which the doctor prescribed after a prolonged period of insomnia.) So that leads me to think that, at least for me, the anesthesia did not cause the insomnia, but something about healing or swelling in that region did. I've had surgery before, and I've had general anesthesia, and I've never had insomnia.
Oh yeah, and sometimes I think I would really be sleeping some, but I felt like I hadn't slept all night, so I might have been waking up frequently and not maybe falling into the right kind of sleep.
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Post by JC on Aug 1, 2011 11:54:46 GMT -5
I had another night filled with anxiety and no sleep. I think I know what's causing it now. I was taking the narcotic pain killers only at night to get comfortable enough to sleep. I think my body got used to the nightly dosage so when I stopped taking them my body is kinda going through some withdrawal. I'm totally fine during the day. I don't have any anxiety at all. But as soon as like 9pm rolls around, I feel that skin crawl sensation and get extremely anxious. Last night I was up all damn night tossing and turning and feeling like I was going to freak the hell out. Then when like 5am comes, I finally feel ok again and calm.
I'm HOPING that once my body is done feening over the drugs I might get back to normal again. HOPEFULLY!
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Post by pretty on Aug 1, 2011 12:14:14 GMT -5
it's the drugs. sucks. coming off major drugs is AWFUL and I HATE IT SO MUCH!!!! no sleep, feel wierd, get all weepy, feel lonely, feel friendless, then feel transported with joy, from FB! or a stupid movie you hate makes you cry and cry! AAAAH!~ I love being tough and balanced and logical, which is why even before endo I wouldn't drink much, don't like being out of control. And also why I can't take pain pills for FUN like some people.... anyway there's nothing harder than trying to find a reason for some horrible emotion when in fact its' all caused bydrugs.... grrrr.... just wait a week jenaya and watch my posts! ha ha ha
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Post by JC on Aug 1, 2011 15:16:49 GMT -5
It's weird though. I am completely fine at any other time. I'm not weepy or snappy during the day. But as soon as I try to lay down to sleep is AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh. I really think it was the timing of the dosage I was giving myself. My body is expecting it every night I guess. How long before this sh*t is out of my system? I can totally see now why people get addicted to these drugs. They take them to avoid this horrible feeling and eventually they can't stop. I'm literally having to force myself to stop thinking about these drugs so that I can get them out of my system. But I keep thinking, if I just had a pill this horrible anxiety feeling will go away and I'll be fine. I just know that's a dangerous road to go down so I'm forcing myself to stay away. It's hard though. This anxiety is really killing me! Ugh, stupid pills.
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Post by 1234 on Aug 1, 2011 17:08:54 GMT -5
It's actually because of this feeling that I've only taken pain pills once. I haven't taken them for endo, ankle surgery, not even 2 eye surgeries in which they cut my eye muscles and I had stitches in my eyes for 6 weeks. After my lap, my husband asked me to take one and I took half a one, and instantly felt horribly nervous and jittery. My dad's sister was addicted to pain pills (and other things) and the addition completely tore our family apart. I'm terrified of them. I'd rather have the pain, any day.
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Post by JC on Aug 1, 2011 19:06:11 GMT -5
When I got vicodin for my migraines I felt myself fixated on the thought of having them there. I never once took them unless I actually had a migraine but I was so uncomfortable with how much of my thoughts went to those damn pills. I swear, you never know what's going to alter your brain chemistry until you encounter it. I think knowing that these meds are habit forming helped me keep aware of how I felt about them so I wouldn't abuse them. But still, geez it's like a love/hate relationship. HAHA. I sure hope I get sleep tonight.
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Post by JC on Aug 1, 2011 22:22:33 GMT -5
I broke down and had a weakness I took nyquil tonight. I don't want to get dependent on crap to help me sleep but this anxiety is killing me! I'm still up late wide awake. Maybe I'll go to the gym tomorrow and burn off some of this pent up anxiety. I don't know what else to do. Am I being impatient?
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Post by Karen on Aug 2, 2011 5:34:46 GMT -5
Can you try melotonin? Or some nighttime tea? I hate that you're feeling this way!
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