Post by butterfly80 on Feb 26, 2013 20:42:33 GMT -5
My pain definitely effects my emotions...I been so down lately..crying, angry, crooked, Moody, sad, sometimes I feel all this but I always manage to smile around others and put on a brave face..a coping skill I mastered a long time ago when faced with depression and ptsd diagnosis. There are days when I am happy though I like being happy... I am so afraid that my depression is coming back...I was doing great loving life for the past couple years...but the past few months with the pain increased and everything catching up on me I am back to almost same ways.... I know it is pain but I hate crying all the time, and being so down and depressed and then angry....messes with everything it do.. Chronic pain just tears us down physically and mentally and emotionally it seems...I cant remember the last time I slept through the night or the last time I fell asleep at a normal hour... I hate feeling this way hate hate hate hate hate hate hate it!!!!!!!! My heart is aching..... But I need to fight this...somehow....
hey butterfly hugs to you hun i totally understand where your coming from, and i believe the same thing pain and emotions come hand in hand which people that dont experience an invisible illness and such chronic pains cannot really understand however like you said you train yourself (so to speak) to smile on the surface and underneath you wanna scream cry lash out etc im like that and give up explaining to family what it is and how i feel
im here if you wanna scream shout lash out talk joke laugh whatever feel free to message me or if you want my number im in uk but whatsapp app is awesome xxxx
"My attitude is based on how you treat me" "Let your faith be bigger than your fears"
Post by MustangGtGirl on Mar 6, 2013 9:31:04 GMT -5
I bought a notebook to write my feelings in even if it was only one curse word on the page I wrote it. It was a way of venting and getting it out. If I was having a real bad day I would write it then put it in and burn it. by burning it, it was almost like a way of saying F you I will fight this.