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Post by ouchy on Jun 12, 2006 11:03:49 GMT -5
Some of you may have seen over the past few days that I was pregnant and somewhat confused over what my symptoms/chemist strips were doing. I deleted my other posts, beacuse they were too sad for me to look at. I had a "chemical" pregnancy. I was pregnant for a few days and lost it. I'm supposed to get my period today. I had been getting bad bad one-sided cramps and my pregnancy test went from + on Friday to a - on both Saturday and Sunday. I went to urgent care yesterday, and my pregnancy hormone was back to being undetectible. It's kind of sad. I know they self-abort for a reason, but I was really excited, and so was my husband. I don't know how I could love something that was just a few balls of cells that happened to implant for a couple days. I'm just so sad, but I'm happy it knew to not stick around if something was wrong. I even wrote a little jounal note the day I found out I was pregnant about how excited my husband and I were to meet our little baby 9 months down the road. Man. The doctor's office told me to get ready for a "heavy" period... Let's see how much different it is from endo pain regular periods. Thanks for reading this. Love you guys. Sorry if I rambled. It was sad to type my temperature in on my chart and see I had lost it temperature-wise, too--meaning my period is coming.
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Post by meldart on Jun 12, 2006 12:12:03 GMT -5
Oh Ouchy, I really feel for you. You must have been so relieved and excited. There is one positive thing that has come out of this awful situation. At least you know you can conceive and that you and your husband are ready for a child when it does finally happen. We are all here for you if you just want to chat.
Take Care & keep your spirits high.
Mel x
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Post by ouchy on Jun 12, 2006 17:23:17 GMT -5
Thanks for your kind words and support. I really appreciate it. I called my mom yesterday and told her that something was wrong with all of the pain I was having and I had never had a headache like that before. She told me I am just a hypochondriac and basically hung up on me. I KNEW something was wrong. She is so insensitive. I have not told her that I lost the little baby. I don't feel like she deserves to know. To this day she still even thinks that endometriosis pain is all in my head, too. In fact, the day I had my first lap I called her right after my surgery to tell her that they found endometriosis and that the pain was NOT all in my head and that I have pictures now to prove it. She hatefully told me that MOST of the pain was in my head and I made 99% of it up! Evil woman! I told my father and my brothers that I lost the baby, but I'm not going to tell my mom. I'm glad I listened to my body yesterday and went to urgent care.
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Post by lauren on Jun 13, 2006 2:16:01 GMT -5
ouchy, there really aren't words for when you loose a little one. of course you love that bundle of cells, its the beginning of life. I'm not sure but I think that's what a happened a while back when I got that positive and then it went back to negative. But its true, now you know you can fall pregnant...its very good news. I'm sorry this happened to you...and that your mom isn't there to support you. I think its difficult for people to understand when they don't deal with it every day of their lives. my family also think i'm obsessed, and that i make it up just to be lazy. you are right though ouchy, there was a reason that little one decided not to come into your life now...he/she will come back when it is time. I've heard that it is sometimes possible to fall pregs right after a chemical pregnancy, but if your hormones are already back down i dont know. miracles happen every day. you need to mourn, even if its just a few days, it was a life and you loved and always will. dont make my mistake. i shut down on these things. I'll pray for you. God's hands are around you.
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Post by sameera on Jun 13, 2006 5:54:50 GMT -5
Hey Ouchy, I am truely sorry about this girl...however don't lose your hope!!! soon and in no time you will be pregnant when you least expect. so you guys should keep trying
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Post by Janet on Jun 13, 2006 8:02:00 GMT -5
I also have no words. I went through something similar last year in the middle of the endo being at its worst for me. I didn't know I had endo at the time though. I got my period and it was god awful, way heavier than ever before and clots but not really blood, more mucous. I went to the dr, who told me, yup, you were pregnant and you miscarried but you'll be fine. I was so shocked. My bf was using condoms and me the pill. I don't want another baby and neither does my bf, but I was devastated. I sat there days thinking about all these women like you that wanted the baby and were excited and had a miscarriage, how did they walk around like everything was ok. I was devastated about something I hadn't known about or even wanted, but the loss was enormous. So all I can say is I am so very sorry for you and your husband, allow yourself to feel the grief as it will help in healing.
Janet
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Post by lilyloves on Jun 13, 2006 12:42:49 GMT -5
So sorry that things didn't turn out great. I had a miscarriage last year(not knowing I was 4 weeks pregnant), tho cos of the pain I didn't leave the house and so there is no pregnancy test to prove it, doctors mark that down as a no. I understand how it is to feel that horrible loss over something so small, maybe because of what it could have been and, best of all what it could have made you (a loving and happy mum) I know what I saw that day, and the pain was like nothing else, in my heart and in my tummy. Our mothers can be a bad example of humanity at its worst, and as you've said, it doesn't feel like they deserve to know. So don't feel guilty about not telling her, I think what she may say would make you say something back that you would regret. Even though she doesn't. You do a lot to support people on here in what seen these 2 days I have been on here, and I can assure you all the good thoughts and prayers in the world are with you at this time and in the future. Feel better soon honey xXx
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Post by ouchy on Jun 13, 2006 15:24:46 GMT -5
Thanks to everyone for the kind words. You all are so wonderful!!! Right now the hardest thing to deal with is knowing that there is a little ball of cells baby in there...waiting to be flushed out with my period...but where is my period??? My temperatures show I should have started yesterday, and I felt like I was going to start my period yesterday...but today I feel great??? No cramps, no gassy feeling like before my period... It's hard to know what is impending. It's all so weird.
Yesterday one of my friends came over and we went to the pool. I felt like I needed companionship and sunshine. I really think the sun helped a lot, too. I went to the pool for a bit today, came back and took a shower. ...Now just waiting for my period. Ugh.
Love you all! Everyone is so supportive!!! Take care, everyone! Love, Ouchy.
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Post by ouchy on Jun 13, 2006 16:37:17 GMT -5
Janet, Yes. This was something similar. We were trying NOT to get pregnant. I had so much pain my last period that I wound up taking one birth control pill...which I later found out made me ovulate on day 11. I was "exposed" on days 9 and 10, and apparently conceived on day 11. I wasn't expecting to get pregnant. I didn't think that taking one birth control pill that early in my cycle was going to make me ovulate that early! ...Guess I was wrong! Although my husband and I were trying NOT to get pregnant, we were prepared for an accident, and we were very happy and excited when we found out. We did not plan and hadn't anticipate starting to try for a baby for the next six months or so. But yah...it's still a loss. THanks again to everyone for the kind words! So many of you can identify with me. Wow. I'm also sorry for the losses everyone else has suffered. Love, Ouchy
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Post by Jenn on Jun 13, 2006 22:15:51 GMT -5
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I believe that everything happens for a reason as harsh as that sounds but, when it is the right time it will happen. I will keep you in my prayers:)
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Post by ouchy on Jun 13, 2006 22:21:19 GMT -5
Hi, Jenn. No, I totally agree! There was a reason for the miscarriage, and it is most likely progesterone deficiency, as I have a short luteal phase (time from ovulation to period). Probably I'll just need progesterone suppositories next time, when we do start trying Thanks for your kind words.
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Post by ouchy on Jun 14, 2006 19:43:18 GMT -5
Ugh!!! I just want to start my period and get it over with!!! We're leaving for Hawaii on Monday morning, and I really don't want to start my period/cramps on the plane...especially if it is most likely going to be more painful this time than what I am used to.... Grrrr! My chart showed a huge drop in temperature on Monday, making me believe I would start then...but today my temp dropped even more...could today be the day? Keep your fingers crossed, everyone! I just want to have a nice honeymoon in Hawaii without my stuipd, evil period!...thanks for letting me rant!!!
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Post by ouchy on Jun 17, 2006 10:37:16 GMT -5
OMIG!!!! Okay. Don't get too excited. I'm NOT pregant...BUTTTTT I probably could have become pregnant again had I not taken an ovulation predictor chemist strip today... Because I was having pain on my left side yesterday and woke up w/ the pain again, I decided that I have soooooooo many chemist strips both pregnancy and ovulation that I decided why not take one of each and see what is going on. Well...I am ovulating---again! How weird is that? After already ovulating because it was chemically induced, I'm now ovulating again on my own, a little early for me, but still late..day 24. How freaky is that?! I didn't know that it could happen. I thought double ovulation only happened at the same time. That is so weird! SOOOOOO, to those of you who have had chemical pregnancies before....bewary! You can ovulate again the same month!
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