Post by terceltina on Oct 3, 2014 1:55:05 GMT -5
Backstory-
My surgery was on August 19th. My boyfriend has finally been booked for his hernia surgery, on Oct 22. I knew I'd have to push myself out of recovery very fast, as he was having more and more issues with lifting things and mobility. September 12th I decided I was well enough to start an exercise program again, and on the day of my follow up with my doctor on Oct 9th, I start playing hockey again as well. So yes, all is good. I've been pain free since surgery (except the numerous times I pushed myself too hard early on, but the last time was Sept 9th, I've been good since then.)
I want some encouragement from my partner for all the work I put into recovering. Here I am, sweating for half an hour every night doing cardio at 9pm after all my chores are done. I'm eating healthy, taking vitamins, serrapeptase, etc, and not playing on the computer for hours and hours like I want to. I just want a little pat on the back, you know? Just something that makes me feel like he thinks I've done a good job.
But then I have to beat myself up a bit, because he's in pain now, and he's withdrawing into his shell, and expecting him to be attentive to me when he's in pain is ridiculous. I know that. Doesn't mean I instantly emotionally recognize it though. So I kinda still feel like I'm due some encouragement, or something. Oh well.
So I just had to get that out of my system. They say expressing your emotions is the first step to accepting them, and them moving on from them. My boyfriend's health started going down hill shortly after I met him. He quit smoking, had a rough time, got in a motorcycle accident, had a weird lung thing, had a gallbladder removed. We've been through tougher things. I always worry for his safety, and I want to always be there and able to help him. I am driven to take care of the people I care about. If I wasn't, I wouldn't be a volunteer firefighter. I just have to find other channels of keeping myself feeling emotionally supported, like friends and family, while I provide my partner with the support he needs before and after his surgery. Burn out is bad.
My surgery was on August 19th. My boyfriend has finally been booked for his hernia surgery, on Oct 22. I knew I'd have to push myself out of recovery very fast, as he was having more and more issues with lifting things and mobility. September 12th I decided I was well enough to start an exercise program again, and on the day of my follow up with my doctor on Oct 9th, I start playing hockey again as well. So yes, all is good. I've been pain free since surgery (except the numerous times I pushed myself too hard early on, but the last time was Sept 9th, I've been good since then.)
I want some encouragement from my partner for all the work I put into recovering. Here I am, sweating for half an hour every night doing cardio at 9pm after all my chores are done. I'm eating healthy, taking vitamins, serrapeptase, etc, and not playing on the computer for hours and hours like I want to. I just want a little pat on the back, you know? Just something that makes me feel like he thinks I've done a good job.
But then I have to beat myself up a bit, because he's in pain now, and he's withdrawing into his shell, and expecting him to be attentive to me when he's in pain is ridiculous. I know that. Doesn't mean I instantly emotionally recognize it though. So I kinda still feel like I'm due some encouragement, or something. Oh well.
So I just had to get that out of my system. They say expressing your emotions is the first step to accepting them, and them moving on from them. My boyfriend's health started going down hill shortly after I met him. He quit smoking, had a rough time, got in a motorcycle accident, had a weird lung thing, had a gallbladder removed. We've been through tougher things. I always worry for his safety, and I want to always be there and able to help him. I am driven to take care of the people I care about. If I wasn't, I wouldn't be a volunteer firefighter. I just have to find other channels of keeping myself feeling emotionally supported, like friends and family, while I provide my partner with the support he needs before and after his surgery. Burn out is bad.