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Post by chicagogal2 on Mar 23, 2011 10:35:15 GMT -5
Tiger - Jenaya is right, this is just the beginning of good things to come! Hopefully once you're back to good you will have some great times being pain free! This is just a drop in the bucket vs. what you have to look forward to! Hang in there hon!
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Post by tigergirl10 on Jul 7, 2011 14:48:25 GMT -5
Has anyone experienced severe depression with Lupron Depot? I have been on lupron since Oct and my last injection will be in September. been having frequent crying spells for no reason and I am struggling just to function in every day life. It happens more so as everyone I know is pregnant or just had a baby. I get more depressed because it may never happen to me. been on antidepressants before and none seemed to work. tried at least 4 different ones. and will just have to get off again if we are to try in Dec to conceive. as for as the ostomy reversal, I am doing better. but still in pain sometimes and running to the bathroom quite frequently. just feel like I am not the same person I was a year ago before all this started. it is either a lupron side effect or all the trauma my body had to go through in 9 months.
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Post by hellsbells on Jul 7, 2011 15:19:03 GMT -5
Hey honey, I think depression plays its part in all of us dealing with an ongoing health battle on top of the normal crap life throws at us every day, every year...you've been through more than most recently. Is there any chance you can get some counselling?
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Post by tigergirl10 on Jul 7, 2011 15:23:39 GMT -5
I don't have the time or money for that. Been depressed so bad. Having suicidal thoughts but I know I won't be stupid enough to act on them.
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Post by pretty on Jul 7, 2011 15:41:58 GMT -5
good for you. I get mad depression from BCP hormones and I think a lot of us do. I also get very depressed when I see too many babies you are not alone, hope that helps a teeny tiny bit... sorry you are feeling bad!
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Post by JC on Jul 7, 2011 17:12:28 GMT -5
Have you stopped by our lupron thread? A lot of women have depression on these types of hormone therapy but in your case I feel that lupron was absolutely necessary given the severity of your case. I also think there may be other things weighing heavy on your mind on top of dealing with health issues. In other words, the lupron may only be secondary to the real cause of your depression. How have you been feeling health wise since your reversal? Are things at home ok? Is there something else that is going on?
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Post by tigergirl10 on Jul 7, 2011 21:46:58 GMT -5
I feel ok most of the time. I have loss of appetite. I rarely feel hungry. My depression has been very deep. And still have flashbacks of the hospital. The ostomy and nearly dying. My scars are a constant reminder. Strongly feel I have bipolar. Making a call to my dr in morning but no longer have insurance.
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Post by hyperkilia on Sept 2, 2011 4:50:06 GMT -5
hmm I never been on that, but I have always experienced depression, and it had been really bad at once I almost starved myself (I dont remember it but mum told me).
And I want to give up on life a lot at times, because of this illness, but I keep thinking on how lucky I am that I dont have cancer or anything like that.
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Post by tigergirl10 on Oct 4, 2011 22:50:26 GMT -5
feeling depressed for no real reason. Just had my bridal shower on Sunday. Felt a little down because most of the people I invited didn't show up. And nearly everyone I know just had a baby or is now pregnant including some of my bridesmaids. Had my last injection of Lupron on July 23rd. Was on it for 9 months for stage 4 Endometrosis. 2 and half months later period still hasn't returned. Me and my fiancée quit taking precautions. With the wedding less than 2 months away if I got preg now it would be ok. Took a preg test last week but negative. Still worried about the permanent damage the endo may have done. It went undiginosed til age 34 last year when I nearly died from it. I still haven't lost the faith that I will get pregnant naturally. Why am I feeling so depressed?
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Post by hyperkilia on Oct 4, 2011 23:44:24 GMT -5
Im sorry to hear about that , depression is a normal side affect from the Endo (on what I had learnt) sorry if Im not of much help
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Post by hannahjex on Oct 5, 2011 3:27:43 GMT -5
Honestly Tiger, after everything you've been through in the last year, depression is understandable. Plus the Lupron is still working it's way out of your system and that can take a psychological toll as well. There is nothing to say you won't be able to conceive and I'm really glad you're holding on to the faith; I know having the big question mark over it and the not knowing for sure makes it hard to stay positive. It's a horrible position to be in, living with all the 'what if?s'. Just remember how strong you are. You got through all the other crap and you'll get through this too; one step at a time. Endo keeps throwing punches at you, but you've kicked its ass every time. There's nothing to stop you kicking its ass some more. I know it's hard, but try to just focus on being a bride and enjoy the run up to the wedding. Have you got your dress yet? Hugs.
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Post by 1234 on Oct 5, 2011 8:16:58 GMT -5
Hey Tiger--I'm so sorry you're struggling with depression. Not having your period for so long can't help--I'm sure that there are all sorts of things going on with your hormones post-Lupron and that can really affect your mental health. How long have you been feeling like this?
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Post by tigergirl10 on Oct 5, 2011 10:30:41 GMT -5
one min I am extremly happy but I get so emotional at the drop of a hat. I come from a very large family on my mom's side. (she came from a family of 11 kids) and I am one of 26 grandchildren. 5 of my cousins just recently had babies. one being my brother's wife who gave me my first nephew/godchild. He is almost 7 months now. and now another cousin just announced her pregnancy and one of my bridesmaids is now 4 and half months. I am the only one out of my close circle of friends that doesn't have any biological children. I do have a stepdaughter 6 years old that I love very much. but it isn't the same. I always have to fight with the mom and until we are married in Dec, I can't even be alone with her. I have no legal rights to her even after we are married. one of my cousins tried for 6 years to have a baby and just got blessed with her baby boy last week. but she just turned 30. at 35, I don't have 6 years of trying. I want to get pregnant right away. just think of all the years I had endo and didn't know til last year. and all the damage it had to do to my reproductive organs. still keeping the faith but it is hard. I guess I will continue to worry about the what ifs til I have a positive pregnancy test. if I still have a negative test by the end of this month and no period, going to the gyno to get it induced.
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Post by KSA on Oct 5, 2011 17:34:39 GMT -5
You have so much going on honey stress can trigger the depression too. Weddings, health issues, life in general, and weather the colder and less sun the more people tend to hide and get depressed. Sleeping more...eating more....winter can bring that out. Positives to look at you are almost married:) You have made it thru a health problem that is so big that most people will never in life conquer what you did. Take time and enjoy what you have right now. A loving husband and family and friends that care for you. The people that did not show is the last thing that should be on a brides mind but in all honesty it is always the first. Looking back I remember the feeling of thinking why didnt the come. Now tho I celebrate who was there and am glad they made it. You will have a amazing day filled will so many memories that you will forget about the bridal shower no shows. Baby blues...yep it is normal. On a positive note I had a boy and I went undiagnosed with stage 4 as well. My twin sis has 3 girls and she is a endo girl too. All without help from the docs. Look at the good stories honey it is possible. Do you have a niece or nephew you can steal for a day or two? It may perk you up:)
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Post by erna on Oct 5, 2011 18:25:06 GMT -5
I can totally relate to the depression your feeling. I was consumed with wanting a baby and watching as all my friends and family was having babies. It seemed like every which way I looked someone was pregnant. It's so hard to focus on the positive when your heart and mind is ready to have a baby but your body is not co-operating. I remember people trying to make me feel better saying that it can happen for you but inside all I could think was "what do you know!" or after I miscarried it was "at least you know you can get pregnant" but not knowing if I would ever carry one to term. I can totally relate to how your feeling and then to deal with all the side effects that Lupron brings is insult to injury. All I can say is that surgery and Lupron did help me and I would not dare try and say that it will for you but being a woman who wanted a baby so bad, I just want you to know your not alone. I will pray for you that God will bless you with a baby very soon. Enjoy your wedding, I hope it's everything you dreamed it would be.
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