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Post by JC on Apr 18, 2010 8:03:32 GMT -5
My Grandpa is like a best friend to me. He is one of my greatest teachers in life and I have a lot to thank for him. On Monday he went to surgery to have a spot on his lung looked at. THey went in and found a mess and ended up having to remove half his lung. He has not been doing well since the surgery. At one point this week he stopped breathing and they think it's because they were over medicating him. Then yesterday he went into respiratory distress and had to be re-intubated. His blood pressure is also not stable. I've spent enough years working in the hospital to know when the signs of death are near. This is killing me because I live across the entire country and I can't be by his side. I have zero emotional support from my husband (the only person I have here). He's just not an emotional person. I'm so sad, he's like a second father to me. One thing I know for sure, my Grandpa would not want to spend the end of his life in a long hospital recovery. The type of surgery he had would take a very long time to recover from and I'm not sure if my grandpa would want to live like that. A part of me feels like he's giving up and sad to say, I guess I can understand. God this sucks. Attachments:
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Post by JC on Apr 18, 2010 8:04:19 GMT -5
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Post by cherry on Apr 18, 2010 9:54:39 GMT -5
I'm sorry about this Jenaya, I can't imagine having to wait on updates from across the country I find it so heartbreaking that from the information you have, you are surmising that his fight is winding down, cos whilst you understand it, I can't imagine how much it hurts... my thoughts and prayers are with you.
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Post by pamelaj on Apr 18, 2010 10:23:23 GMT -5
Im so sorry to hear that your Grampa isnt doing so well Jenaya. I know it must be hard on you being so far away. One thing that may help make you smile...think of the good fun times you guys have and not of him laying in the hospital. Call him(if u can), pray for recovery. Hugs from me to you
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Post by JC on Apr 18, 2010 10:56:44 GMT -5
I spoke to him on Tuesday after his surgery and, although in pain and drugged up, he made me laugh because he told me the story of the nurse putting in his foley catheter. He told her, "Did ya find it? Cause I haven't been able to find it in years!"
He's a funny guy. He's my hero. My coping mechanism of "it could be worse" has not been working lately. At some point, when life is so unkind to you, you start to really become down. I've been through so much lately, sometimes I just feel so broken. It's hard to find something to smile about when I feel like my world is falling apart.
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Post by cherry on Apr 18, 2010 11:36:32 GMT -5
I know that feeling. Completely different situations but I do get it, the point where you just can't pick yourself up any more. I'm always here for you, you know I can goof with the best of them if you want a light-hearted chat. He sounds like a real good guy. If anything try to console yourself that know and love him well enough to see what's happening from across the country, that despite his pain he loves you so much that he will tell you about funny things that happened to him, because wants to cheer you up. Our time rarely comes when we can see it looming up ahead, but you've had a lifetime of him, of loving and learning and if you can, take the positives in that you can prepare to say goodbye, even if not in person.
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Post by hellsbells on Apr 18, 2010 12:32:34 GMT -5
I lived abroad while my Ganddad was getting ill, and every time I came home he looked worse so it was always a big shock. I totally totally get how you're feeling. Mine was the most amazing person I'd ever known. I'd already lost my dad and brother by the time my Granddad passed away and I don't think I ever grieved properly. If I hadn't been through what I had by the time he went I'd have been inconsolable. He was the sweetest, kindest man I've ever known or ever will.
But you know what? Granddad's love for their grand-daughters (and let's face it, we're more special than the boys in their eyes!) cuts through distance. He knows you adore him and he adores you too and even if you're not physically there he'll feel your love. Is there any chance of you getting back? Big hugs sweetheart xx
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Post by JC on Apr 18, 2010 17:49:21 GMT -5
You gals have been awesome. Thank you Helen for chatting with me on facebook today. That meant a lot. As a little update, my Grandpa now has pneumonia but his vital signs are much more stable. You win some, you lose some.... so we play the waiting game.
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Post by sarjenka on Apr 18, 2010 18:41:52 GMT -5
Just wanted to send some support. You have given me some wonderful replies that have helped support me with this crappy illness, so i wanted to let you know that we're thinking of you and hoping things get better with your grandpa. Take Care!
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Post by cherry on Apr 20, 2010 12:26:26 GMT -5
Any news?
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Post by Karen on Apr 20, 2010 12:49:43 GMT -5
Aw, Jenaya, I'm so sorry to hear that. I was very close to my grandpa and it was so hard to see his health decline. But, I have so many traits of his that I inherited that I'm grateful I still have parts of him with me. But it still doesn't replace having a healthy, fun gpa!
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Post by cherry on Apr 20, 2010 12:56:51 GMT -5
I look back fondly and am grateful for the traits I've inherited from my granddad. There was a lot of heartache surrounding his death so it's some consolation that I see him in myself, and they are the best bits too
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Post by JC on Apr 21, 2010 20:34:55 GMT -5
No new news. He's basically the same from what I hear. It's hard to get an accurate update because by the time I get the information it has been passed down from 3 different people. Plus hearing all this in layman's terms is driving me insane. I want to know wtf is going on! It's frustrating to be so far away. About what you said about the traits you inherit from grandads, I inherited his big fat foul mouth and perverted outlook on life. HAHAHAHAHAA! I LOVE HIM!
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Post by KSA on Apr 22, 2010 9:10:47 GMT -5
Jenaya sorry to hear about your grandpa. Keep us posted on how he is doing. Love the pics:)
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Post by Karen on Apr 22, 2010 18:00:21 GMT -5
About what you said about the traits you inherit from grandads, I inherited his big fat foul mouth and perverted outlook on life. HAHAHAHAHAA! I LOVE HIM! Ah, well, then we can ALL benefit from his life! You wouldn't be you without those traits!
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